My brain hurts reading this topic. The author specifically said he was disconnected from chatting with a person called "thinking suicide". I am not taking away your empathy and desire to help by any means, but maybe read before making such assumptions.
how old are you right now? maybe you're still young.. try to have a pet. Maybe you can relate with how they feel.. :) At least in pets like dog,cat,fish,birds etc. you can build connections which is indeed vital for you at the moment. I hope it will help. :)
P.S. I once lost too, but now I'm found in God's purpose. :)
