• Music Lovers

    A writing of a thousand words no one will completely read
    A post that will get lost among the horny outcries, topics riddled with drama, and stupid clickbait.
    The words I write are to whom it may concern.

    To the people who pointed out my flaws, my mistakes, my unreasonable actions. Thank you. The thoughts that cross my mind every day, the ones I see when I stare in the mirror, the ones I ponder on when Im alone, you make them more alive.
    “Kill yourself” , trust me, I would if I could. But the girl in the mirror, is too much of a coward to go through with it.
    “Chubby”, trust me, as much as I starve myself, it will never be good enough for you.
    “Dumb as a brick wall”, trust me, I think about that one a lot. The girl in the mirror, is an airhead. Only because I can never share the opinion you have.

    To the people who leave. Thank you. Never once has a day gone by where I dont wish I could turn back time.
    You had no friends? I get that....I feel that. Almost every day. That lonely feeling, will just keep eating at you, until you become it.
    You had better things to do? I get that...I feel that. Sometimes I feel like my life could be better, if only I had the will to try.
    You couldnt handle the drama? I get that...and I feel that. Thats all this place is, and people live for it. Little do they know that piece by piece, the stress of the drama gets to you.

    To the people who I called my friends. Thank you. You made days a little more bearable. A little easier to handle
    You know me? I flawed out. I hid too many things. Youll never really know me. Because what you see is the smile. What I see, is whats so carefully hidden behind it.
    You were my “bestie”? I flawed out. I trust easy, and care for people even easier. Humans are despicable. And sometimes I have to remember that not everyone deserves a second chance. And the world, isnt all cupcakes and rainbows.
    You were my family? I flawed out. I forgot what that word means.

    To the people who I say I loved. In sorry.
    We rarely talk? Im sorry...sometimes I cant keep my priorities straight. I am bad at showing love.
    We argue? Im sorry...sometimes I like to think that I know everything. Even though I dont even have the first damn clue.
    We have a ritual of saying I love you? Im sorry..sometimes I take that word too lightly. Love all the wrong people, and they will destroy you.

    To whom it may concern.
    My name is Willow.
    I fuck up. I make mistakes
    Im not beautiful. It takes so much effort to take a picture.
    I cant win every argument. I dont know everything.
    I cant ever love you. Because i dont even know what being loved feels like anymore.
    I am sensitive. Emotions are the only thing i really know.

    Sometimes

    Its okay to not be okay


  • @willow up


  • @willow

    And those whom this letter concerns are the ones that are important, so fuck the rest really.
    Trolls will always be trolls, they haunt and hunt ppl to hide their own fragilities and insecurities. They kinda have to be trolls to survive, otherwise they will be weak in their own eyes.
    Ppl leave and come back, but the ones that REALLY matter will always stick around even if they aren't on TWS anymore. You'll never get rid of me, even if I quit TWS, so don't go around singing you'll get rid of me that easily! :smirk:
    Friends and lovers always leave a great spot in our lives, some are the type that we don't talk much but we can count on them, some are always there and some show up in a particular tim eof our life and vanish with time leaving behind a very bitter sweet memory. I don't know where i'll ever end up, but I know where I'll want to be. At this point all I can say is that you can count on me.

    As a final note. It's okay to not be okay as long as we work and fight to get better, noone I don't expect you to be happy and cheerful all the time, everyone has their ups and downs, cuz we are humans after all

    pounces at you chasing after your tail


  • @Willow whether you know it or just don't care, there will always be somone who loves you. I've been through so much, and trust me I understand, but I fought depression, and here I am. In today's society we come to look at life through all it's failures to do us good. Instead, we should look at the beauty of life. If you don't see good in the next thing you see, you're looking at it wrong. I promise. And I promise that I will always love you, whether I ever get to know you or not. I'll love you for what you are, not what I think that you are. And never, ever think that no one cares.


  • @willow

    Dear Willow, (A CapriSUN Queen, My Favorite Writer Ever)

    I always put a concern on your post even i dont follow you 😹 (my first promise to Judith that she is the only girl whom i follow).
    FYI, words are swords in this digital era.

    If that people (who messed up or troll you or bullies you) exist on this TWS, dm me directly. I will try to proceed "punishment" on that person and @ragnar will make the "execution". No worries, we are with you.
    If it is happening on your real life, i can do nothing but i am all ears if you need me.

    About old friends who left, we do miss all of them. I miss @lucifer and now he is back with @ObviouslyLucifer , and 2 of them still lurking till now @AlbertoLok and @Stranger_Danger
    @Help_WtfJudith miss @LayIa . @Evan-Elderson miss some of his "troll friends" and some "oldies friends" of him (i feel sad when daddy feel this way. So i let daddy wins in every battle with me to please him). @Rendezvous miss some of his friends but some of them come back on this summer. You are not alone.

    About friends, i dont have any words for those words. Friendship is not about who you are and how long you have been with them. Friendship is about someone who accept your flaws, understand your weird side even still love your ugly side.
    You forget the fact, you have many friends here, Ms. Sanders. Even @Zoobie is a friend of yours 😀. Do you need a fact? He put your name on his bio like @Rendezvous around 2 days ago.

    Right now, you know what do you want to do something in your life? Cool. You can start writing or compose a music or try to be A BAD TEACHER like me 🙊

    About the drama, I am A DRAMA KING 🙊. So will you hate me now? Screw with haters, Willow is always the best :)

    About hiding some facts and things. Haha. Do you think i am not hiding something? Nope. We all have secrets, we all have privacy. All of us. No worries.

    One thing you have to know about trust that this girl ever shared me @Help_WtfJudith tfjudith even it is hurt, i forgive her lies and i wish her come back
    Do you know willow, a 17 years old blue eyes Canadian girl who speak french, do weirdo stuff all days and always be the most abnormal person in this tws say this? I cant say anything. In that time i think i am in love with her side.
    I am not saying you should be someone or something. It is about how can we deal with people who make you feel unpleasant or sad or angry or may be bad feeling. When you control yourself, everything will be alright. Just deal with it, move on and continue your new journey in a blank paper.

    For me, family is about :
    Money can come and go, we all know that. The most important thing is people in this room, right here, right now. Salute mi familia. - Dominic Toretto, Fast Five
    Yes, but we live in TWS now, everything rn such a cupcake rainbow after "pride month", sweet and lovely 🙊

    @Mr-H ARE YOU THE ONE WHO RESPONSIBLE FOR THESE BROKEN HEART WORDS AND MAKE A GIRL SAY THESE WORDS? OKAY. YOU WILL BE BANNED FOREVAAAAA 😈😈
    Da hell with you dude? copied mama willow Nada Nada Baby Boy, you are not a gentleman when you make a girl cries.
    (What da hell wrong with me today? Did my gay side wake up or something?)
    @mr-h cheer her up every time because she is the only girl you love right? This girl needs many attentions. oh i forget the fact that YOU ARE GAY like me 🙊
    FYI, i did annoying Judith everyday till she is like "OH, NOT AGAIN G". 😁 but it is a lie :pl
    @ragnar give @Mr-H a permanent banned if he cant share all of his body (even his dick, his hole and his half ballss) lol.
    *i am kidding.

    Yes, your full name is Willow Mary Louisa Sanders. We all make mistakes because we are hooman. May be @spaceboy would not make any mistakes, because he is alien 😀
    Then, if you are not beautiful like you said, @Abby-22 said that you are her lesbian gf. My question is, how can you are not beautiful when you have a lesbian gf? okay rn i said that @help_wtfjudith is not beautiful because she neva had a gf

    Yes, you dont know everything. You are not a god even Jesus does not know everything, girl.

    Thank you for never loving me because i just love @help_wtfjudith
    Judith you can send your doggos naked picture later as a thank you word

    Noted, you are sensitive and you just know about emotions. I will try to perceive you as my needy sister on her period who demands me do anything, everything or i will get a punch from my parents 😹

    Sometimes Its okay to not be okay 👍 Congrats, you have a second song now. After NADA NADA BABY BOY, now you can launch this song :p

    Bandung, July 2nd 2018, 11.18 AM (UTC+7)
    Sincerely,

    G (Judith's Last Husband, A Drama King)


  • Hey,

    Willow i'm new here so i don't know much about you
    But ! you posted pictures of cats which made my mind blew
    What ? not in a bad way, a way that made my feelings go through !

    Willow, you seem like a wonderful human being to Me
    He, She that hate on you, might deep inside be hollow ?
    Be who you are, but the haters you should not follow
    Funny, is what you are, so make theses hoe's swallow !

    Willow, i really don't know much about you
    However, on TWS your character is a break through
    Never, you should harm yourself, cause then we would miss you
    Whoever, catches your beautiful smile and stays calm has an issue !

    Willow, pls ignore the haters and calm your blood pressure
    I hope i could show you that we care for you, all together.

    PS: I hope you like my improvisation lol and don't be afraid to send me a PM when you want to talk.




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  • @willow a sincere advice.
    Quit this website.
    Make friends in real life.
    Not saying, that real life friends can’t betray you or you can trust all of them, or you would always find the right people there. But, you will get to know some real people. people who hide things, but you can get to know them step by step.
    People, who will come to your place and hug you whenever you feel lonely, or scared or whatever.
    And talking about me, yes ofc i am your friend, and i guess, a close one too. But believe me, it can never be same with an online person as a real life person.
    And not only me, Even snek, Mr.H, Lucifer or whoever you call your friends ot family.
    I know this would be difficult, but you gotta do it will, Thats the right thing to do.


  • @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @willow a sincere advice.
    Quit this website.
    Make friends in real life.
    Not saying, that real life friends can’t betray you or you can trust all of them, or you would always find the right people there. But, you will get to know some real people. people who hide things, but you can get to know them step by step.
    People, who will come to your place and hug you whenever you feel lonely, or scared or whatever.
    And talking about me, yes ofc i am your friend, and i guess, a close one too. But believe me, it can never be same with an online person as a real life person.
    And not only me, Even snek, Mr.H, Lucifer or whoever you call your friends ot family.
    I know this would be difficult, but you gotta do it will, Thats the right thing to do.

    Everyone keeps on talking about quitting this website, but I don’t think TWS is that bad in itself..
    Sure there are a lot of horny mofos and it can never be the same as talking to people face to face, but you can still get to know people and have significant conversations and even make really good friends.

    I think the problem we get is that it’s fuxking addicting.. this site can’t replace real life relationships and the shit that sometimes goes down on here can be toxic to some people if they spend too much time on it

    But in itself this site serves its purpose well. It’s entertaining and you get to meet a load of cool people


  • @help_wtfjudith said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @willow a sincere advice.
    Quit this website.
    Make friends in real life.
    Not saying, that real life friends can’t betray you or you can trust all of them, or you would always find the right people there. But, you will get to know some real people. people who hide things, but you can get to know them step by step.
    People, who will come to your place and hug you whenever you feel lonely, or scared or whatever.
    And talking about me, yes ofc i am your friend, and i guess, a close one too. But believe me, it can never be same with an online person as a real life person.
    And not only me, Even snek, Mr.H, Lucifer or whoever you call your friends ot family.
    I know this would be difficult, but you gotta do it will, Thats the right thing to do.

    Everyone keeps on talking about quitting this website, but I don’t think TWS is that bad in itself..
    Sure there are a lot of horny mofos and it can never be the same as talking to people face to face, but you can still get to know people and have significant conversations and even make really good friends.

    I think the problem we get is that it’s fuxking addicting.. this site can’t replace real life relationships and the shit that sometimes goes down on here can be toxic to some people if they spend too much time on it

    But in itself this site serves its purpose well. It’s entertaining and you get to meet a load of cool people

    I am not saying that TWS is bad or something. Its obviously good for passing your time or having some fun or posting some shit and weird stuff like we do.
    But talking about the fact if you can actually have some significant conversations with people or make some really good friends, I honestly don’t think thats the case.
    I don’t believe, I have made a friend in here, with whom I can talk about anything, and be my real self. ( Actually, I dont have any person of that kind even in real life, but still I would like to believe it’s possible, reason being I haven’t actually tried getting close to anyone in real life, but here I have)
    And you can never get to know anybody’s real self here, reason being, Everyone projects themselves differently, including me. Like, what Image i have here, is absolutely different from my real life. Sometimes I feel if I am actually facing split personalities by using this site, and behaving differently from my real life.
    And you answer me, I am your friend, right? I mean you call me a friend, but have we ever had a conversation about anything meaningful? Or Do you have any idea whats going on with my life, or Do I have any idea whats going on with u? Nope. Not at all.
    We sure can make friends here, to just have fun with, to joke and to do some shit stuff, but saying if you can be actually close with anyone on here, nah, not true.


  • @rendezvous Hello Rendy, it is a quite tough and hard words you mention about "friendship". Can we discuss further more about this on "private message" rather than this "public"?
    I am all ears if you wanna share something happen on you recently. As far as i concern, i figured out you might feel "uncomfortable" because of something. But ofc, it is all decision is on your hand. My dm is open if you wanna talk. What @Help_WtfJudith said is true, but your opinion is true too. However, not all of your real friends are your real friends and always understand you while your virtual friends dont be your friends and neva feel care about you.


  • @g-a said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @rendezvous Hello Rendy, it is a quite tough and hard words you mention about "friendship". Can we discuss further more about this on "private message" rather than this "public"?
    I am all ears if you wanna share something happen on you recently. As far as i concern, i figured out you might feel "uncomfortable" because of something. But ofc, it is all decision is on your hand. My dm is open if you wanna talk. What @Help_WtfJudith said is true, but your opinion is true too. However, not all of your real friends are your real friends and always understand you while your virtual friends dont be your friends and neva feel care about you.

    Hmm thanks. I appreciate it.
    But I kinda have given up on DMs.
    And Actually, I don’t have anything to share rn, but I will sure remember you whenever I do. 👍


  • @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @help_wtfjudith said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @willow a sincere advice.
    Quit this website.
    Make friends in real life.
    Not saying, that real life friends can’t betray you or you can trust all of them, or you would always find the right people there. But, you will get to know some real people. people who hide things, but you can get to know them step by step.
    People, who will come to your place and hug you whenever you feel lonely, or scared or whatever.
    And talking about me, yes ofc i am your friend, and i guess, a close one too. But believe me, it can never be same with an online person as a real life person.
    And not only me, Even snek, Mr.H, Lucifer or whoever you call your friends ot family.
    I know this would be difficult, but you gotta do it will, Thats the right thing to do.

    Everyone keeps on talking about quitting this website, but I don’t think TWS is that bad in itself..
    Sure there are a lot of horny mofos and it can never be the same as talking to people face to face, but you can still get to know people and have significant conversations and even make really good friends.

    I think the problem we get is that it’s fuxking addicting.. this site can’t replace real life relationships and the shit that sometimes goes down on here can be toxic to some people if they spend too much time on it

    But in itself this site serves its purpose well. It’s entertaining and you get to meet a load of cool people

    I am not saying that TWS is bad or something. Its obviously good for passing your time or having some fun or posting some shit and weird stuff like we do.

    Agreed

    But talking about the fact if you can actually have some significant conversations with people or make some really good friends, I honestly don’t think thats the case.

    I still do. I recognize the fact that it’s different than irl tho

    I don’t believe, I have made a friend in here, with whom I can talk about anything, and be my real self. ( Actually, I dont have any person of that kind even in real life, but still I would like to believe it’s possible, reason being I haven’t actually tried getting close to anyone in real life, but here I have)

    I used to be fairly close to Layla and I’d talk about all kinds of shit. There’s been a lot more during that time and even today
    So I firmly believe it’s possible

    And you can never get to know anybody’s real self here, reason being, Everyone projects themselves differently, including me. Like, what Image i have here, is absolutely different from my real life. Sometimes I feel if I am actually facing split personalities by using this site, and behaving differently from my real life.

    It might be different than irl, but you can’t completely fake your personality
    You will still act the way your true self would act, but I think since it’s a different virtual environment it’s bound to change

    And you answer me, I am your friend, right? I mean you call me a friend, but have we ever had a conversation about anything meaningful?

    I think we did have a short period of something like that, but idk why it stopped.

    Or Do you have any idea whats going on with my life, or Do I have any idea whats going on with u? Nope. Not at all.

    I don’t, but it’s not like we’ve been chatting a lot anyways really?
    Just like with my best friend, haven’t seen her in 2 weeks and she’s busy af rn so idk etf is going on with her, but she’s still my best friend. I don’t think people need to constantly update each other on shot going on their lives to remain friends. Just the fact that you know the person is there if you need it and vice versa

    We sure can make friends here, to just have fun with, to joke and to do some shit stuff, but saying if you can be actually close with anyone on here, nah, not true.

    I still don’t think that’s true. A lot of the people you talk to on here you end up only joking around with on topics or public, but the select few you eventually grow to know more I think we go in depth with in pm


  • @help_wtfjudith said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @help_wtfjudith said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @willow a sincere advice.
    Quit this website.
    Make friends in real life.
    Not saying, that real life friends can’t betray you or you can trust all of them, or you would always find the right people there. But, you will get to know some real people. people who hide things, but you can get to know them step by step.
    People, who will come to your place and hug you whenever you feel lonely, or scared or whatever.
    And talking about me, yes ofc i am your friend, and i guess, a close one too. But believe me, it can never be same with an online person as a real life person.
    And not only me, Even snek, Mr.H, Lucifer or whoever you call your friends ot family.
    I know this would be difficult, but you gotta do it will, Thats the right thing to do.

    Everyone keeps on talking about quitting this website, but I don’t think TWS is that bad in itself..
    Sure there are a lot of horny mofos and it can never be the same as talking to people face to face, but you can still get to know people and have significant conversations and even make really good friends.

    I think the problem we get is that it’s fuxking addicting.. this site can’t replace real life relationships and the shit that sometimes goes down on here can be toxic to some people if they spend too much time on it

    But in itself this site serves its purpose well. It’s entertaining and you get to meet a load of cool people

    I am not saying that TWS is bad or something. Its obviously good for passing your time or having some fun or posting some shit and weird stuff like we do.

    Agreed

    But talking about the fact if you can actually have some significant conversations with people or make some really good friends, I honestly don’t think thats the case.

    I still do. I recognize the fact that it’s different than irl tho

    I don’t believe, I have made a friend in here, with whom I can talk about anything, and be my real self. ( Actually, I dont have any person of that kind even in real life, but still I would like to believe it’s possible, reason being I haven’t actually tried getting close to anyone in real life, but here I have)

    I used to be fairly close to Layla and I’d talk about all kinds of shit. There’s been a lot more during that time and even today
    So I firmly believe it’s possible

    And you can never get to know anybody’s real self here, reason being, Everyone projects themselves differently, including me. Like, what Image i have here, is absolutely different from my real life. Sometimes I feel if I am actually facing split personalities by using this site, and behaving differently from my real life.

    It might be different than irl, but you can’t completely fake your personality
    You will still act the way your true self would act, but I think since it’s a different virtual environment it’s bound to change

    And you answer me, I am your friend, right? I mean you call me a friend, but have we ever had a conversation about anything meaningful?

    I think we did have a short period of something like that, but idk why it stopped.

    Or Do you have any idea whats going on with my life, or Do I have any idea whats going on with u? Nope. Not at all.

    I don’t, but it’s not like we’ve been chatting a lot anyways really?
    Just like with my best friend, haven’t seen her in 2 weeks and she’s busy af rn so idk etf is going on with her, but she’s still my best friend. I don’t think people need to constantly update each other on shot going on their lives to remain friends. Just the fact that you know the person is there if you need it and vice versa

    We sure can make friends here, to just have fun with, to joke and to do some shit stuff, but saying if you can be actually close with anyone on here, nah, not true.

    I still don’t think that’s true. A lot of the people you talk to on here you end up only joking around with on topics or public, but the select few you eventually grow to know more I think we go in depth with in pm

    Idk. I guess then its just that I have given up on everyone, given up on talking to people on DMs, and even in Public Chat, because I actually feel I have given like 4 months to this website, but still I haven’t made any friend whom I would tell everything, who won’t judge me or be there for me whenever I need to.
    Like its not just you, whom I don’t chat much anymore, its everyone. I feel withdrawn and excluded from everyone.


  • @rendezvous

    Your points are valid and honest and I can agree with you in some.
    I believe that there can be a good balance between online and IRL. Just cuz you are here, doesn't mean you can't make friends IRL. I believe there is a place for everything and this website is made to not be taken too serious, as it's a place you come to post shit and be weird, tho it doesn't mean honest and pure communication can't happen. There was a post, a few weeks ago, about split personalities that touched how ppl can behave and act different online then IRL and that is very true, especially if you are trying to get away from your own self, but I believe there are still some ppl that open up and show their true colors, if you take the time to get to know them.
    It's obviously better if your circle of friends are nearby. That can drop by when you need a hug, that can take you out when you need to but I've had bad experiences in both "worlds", since people can deceive anywhere and can be a bitch anywhere. Maybe it's as you say, maybe you did give up on everyone and got away from everyone cuz you don't feel like ppl can hold significant conversations, but if you get away / hide from ppl IRL it will happen the same, so don't blame it on the fact it's online, I can assure you that there can be such connection online as I have ppl that I've know for over 10 years that still care to drop off and ask how things are going and genuinely worry, just gotta allow yourself to make such bound.
    As a final note, I always mentioned online vs IRL not TWS vs IRL, keep that in mind, as I also find this website not the best one for what I went over but I believe it's still possible with the right users! :v:


  • @willow the only one who you truly need to please is that girl in the mirror.
    True love accepts you, flaws and all. It doesn't try to change you, nor does it criticize.


  • @rendezvous said in A Letter To Whom It May Concern:

    @willow a sincere advice.
    Quit this website.

    This is one of the reasons I dont talk to @Evan-Elderson when Im having issues anymore. Your solution is always to just leave. Just walk away. Always saying “this website doesnt mean shit”. And it just kills my vibe even more.
    Because you dont know the people here like i do. You even said it in one of your replies above.
    When I look at this website I see the people who have helped me through some pretty tough shit. But I also see the idiots that screwed me over, the idiots I let get to me, and all the dumbass spammers and horny pieces of shit.

    You want me to leave the website. And just continue to go into the world of real life. Which i refuse to ever just do.
    Because real life Ren, is just like online.
    All my relationships I have had these last few months, it all consisted of texting and video calling. Both of which I have also done on here. All my friendships barely get passed aquaintance level. I dont open up to people like I do with complete strangers.

    Make friends in real life.
    Not saying, that real life friends can’t betray you or you can trust all of them, or you would always find the right people there.

    I have found the right people here

    But, you will get to know some real people. people who hide things, but you can get to know them step by step.

    I can also do that on here

    People, who will come to your place and hug you whenever you feel lonely, or scared or whatever.

    This is HILARIOUS. Because it shows just how different everyone is. I do better with messaging. I dont like people watching me cry. I dont like people watching me lose my damn mind. I would rather message around. Prove to myself that i can get myself calmed down, with the minimal help that I know someone is there.

    I know this would be difficult, but you gotta do it will, Thats the right thing to do.

    And lastly. Dont tell me whats right and whats wrong. All Im seeing here is me just picking a problem and running away from it. You pin all this blame on the people online. But news flash Ren, it was written for some people I interact offline with as well.
    The stress was written from real life as well
    Hell even the trigger came from real life.

    Dont give advice that may be best for you.
    Dont come up on a post that i already feel shitty abt looking at, let alone replying to. And just bringing up the old phrase ERR TYPICAL USER USES that “TWS sucks, just leave” because Im so sick of hearing it


  • @willow
    I must say...this is one of your best posts ever :)
    I'm so proud of you!


  • @help_wtfjudith around 11 hours ago, you asked me about a possibility your "different character" irl. You just answer it, girl.

    It might be different than irl, but you can’t completely fake your personality
    You will still act the way your true self would act, but I think since it’s a different virtual environment it’s bound to change

    I wanna say, it is not a biggy deal for me if you have another "character" because of your explanation above. Yes, I love you and everything about you. Do you still need explanation? Well, you are a young girl who know how to behave like a kid on your age but you are mature enough when we talk. I feel comfortable in that things, your side.