@cjko I'm so sorry for your loss. But as many said, death is part of life. It's the "conclusion" of our time here, and wherever he is, he certainly doesn't want to see you sad. So you gotta be a little strong and get better soon, tho don't hold back or hide your sorrow. It's ok to feel sad, we are only humans, we feel... really much. If you ever need someone to speak too, count me in!

I have had a similar problem in the past. I was registered by the doctor as 'Agoraphobic' (the fear of going outside). I would suggest to you, take small steps.... try starting with small groups of people (maybe even one to one). Regarding going out to places etc.... You can use an object as a personal focal point. By this I mean .... you could for example hold a small object of some description in the palm of your hand while you are out. What this does is it gives your brain something to focus on more than the crowd around. A comfort blanket if you will. You can also set yourself small tasks, things like travel on a public bus or have a look around a library. There are many ways and things that you can adopt to make your 'social life' better and over time change on a huge scale. I hope this helps, and good luck with your situation for now and the future

@memequeen depends really.