Hey, I'm so proud of you. You're strong. The bravest decision you've made is to keep on living in the moment you really want to die. My brother had depression too. It is sad indeed to see the one you're growing up with. We've gone through everything together but resulting in two very different individuals. I never expected it, all of us never expected it would happen. Thanks to god with support from family and friends, he has gotten over his depression. I wish you do too