So I'm 18 years old, i have a little sister and our parents decided to get divorced because my mom was cheating and my dad was abusive and drinked a lot. She left the house and my dad tried suicide. He was put in a mental hospital but because he was positive with covid they sent him home. I was taking care of him. The social workers asked me if i wanna leave(there is nothing i wanna do more) but my dad told me he'll com8t suicide again and will go to the news to talk about everything. Since we livw in a small town this is very scary to me because i dont want anyone to bully me. However, my dad found a gf and here is where it gets fucked up. Me and my sister caught them having sex like 5 times, even tho when we did the first time we were clear about them not doing it in the house(my sister is 10 years). Yesterday i was so mad i started choking him because i caught them having sex again where everyone can see them. My mom has a man as well so i cant sleep there. I cant go to my friends cuz i cant take my sister with me(my dad wont let me in a milion years). I have derealization as well and a lot of anxiety, and since this is my last year and i need to have good grades and the last exams are giving me stress. Idk what to do i feel so hopeless and kinda dont see what i can do.. that makes me wanna take my life sometimes, but i cant do that and leave my sister struguling alone
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