Posts made by vanteindo

been more confident in me, and be forthcoming. Being able to voice out what I needed.

@SSSnow for me Indian guys on YouTube helped a lot during exams. But also practicing Leetcode helps too.

@Umm_umm I am sorry you are feeling this right now. But I just know this is a fleeting feeling. I have been feeling this way too. And its challenging to remove oneself from that. But just know good days are there too. After every thunderstorm, there is light. If its thunderstorm during the day that is :D

@wuckert-rhea did you just copy what I wrote earlier under the post? :)

hey! I am a CS graduate lol.. but my programming skills have been lacking recently since I wasn't practicing much, but I started to learn JS recently and its good, like yeah i lack motivation too sometimes, but what you can do is start practicing in Codepen, where you can code something creative even tho anything small but it will be your own creative web.

@Peek_A_Boom and you are making this claim as if you know me? I talk with you for a minuscule of minutes and you assume you know me as if we are best buddies. you are a narcissist and a misogynistic loser. you want girls to run after you, scratch that, "online girls" cause you obviously won't have women chasing after you in real life, so you seek internet gratification to make yourself feel a lil bit less pathetic.

Can I voice my opinion? if so, having multiple wives in Islam is not frowned upon nor is it not - not permissible. But, its often times being used inappropriately where most men justify their actions of marrying multiple women that of Prophet Muhammed. When the Prophet himself used to have multiple wives for the sole purpose of giving them a home, a name, and respect. and also for relations. He only truly loved ONE wife and one wife only of his, who is Khadija. In this day and age, many misuses this Islamic rule for their own enjoyment when it is anything but.

Then ALLAH knows best.

@TM thats something I say to myself to console myself sometimes.

@Peek_A_Boom well, crying in the corner is my forte.

does anyone here feel distant from social media, like that feeling of strangeness and out of touch?

Seeing everyone living up to the standards of society such as creating social media, having interactions, and whatnot, while you are just feeling like a loser thinking I would never be like that.

And that feeling of loneliness once you do create anything.

I just feel like this sometimes and put a pathetic branding on my way of life.

@TM yes, i try to just focus on me and my goals, cause remembering and overthinking about past will only trigger more emotions.

@Ben-4 yeah we can chat if u want

can someone be my friend here, most of my "friends" don't even reply to me or do not care.

I feel like my twin sister has more friends than me and she boasts about it. Thinking she has individual friends who do reply to her. But I do not have either.

I feel so lonely and sad at times, to be honest.

dm me if you want.

@TM very well said. The question I asked is mostly stemming from my own self-war. I have been hating myself for these past months. From my appearance to my personality. I keep thinking and thinking about the things I did in the past, like was I ever present? Was I ever loved, or heard or seen? Was I the person I thought to be? I feel like I am losing my identity within myself. I am not confident, I never was, I am not pretty enough, I am not good enough. Thats what I think most of the time. The one thing I hate is other people asserting authority over me. I do not want that ever. So if I sense the slightest clue that that's whats happening I go wild. and then i feel guilty. I comfort myself and move on. But then it happens again. and again. its a loop of sadness and despair and anxiety. im so tired.

im bored so...

Tell me something you hate about yourself. Could be anything, from appearance to personality trait.

@TheRisingSun wow, deep.

Name a song that makes you feel alive, empowered, and fearless.

When you listen to it, you feel you can do anything.

Song+artist

@Peek_A_Boom funny. no seriously, give it a read if u would like!