Best posts made by vanteindo

I am 25 today. well shit, its more depressing now.

Can I voice my opinion? if so, having multiple wives in Islam is not frowned upon nor is it not - not permissible. But, its often times being used inappropriately where most men justify their actions of marrying multiple women that of Prophet Muhammed. When the Prophet himself used to have multiple wives for the sole purpose of giving them a home, a name, and respect. and also for relations. He only truly loved ONE wife and one wife only of his, who is Khadija. In this day and age, many misuses this Islamic rule for their own enjoyment when it is anything but.

Then ALLAH knows best.

I have an identical twin and we fight. a lot. all my life I have felt the ugly one, the shy one, the anti-social one. I feel like I did not have enough friends, as opposed to her, and I did not make enough memories.

Currently, we are fighting about who had more "friends" and she is making me feel like I had none, and no one cared about me. Basically, I did not exist or I was not loved. enough.

I am so tired and exhausted. It is mentally draining me and I feel like I am to blame for everything.

I just hate being me.

I need a friend to talk to :( can someone be that for me here..

Want to get to know new people :)

@Janet well it looks cool! I especially attract towards witty/humorous lead. I will surely check it out. Thanks!

Guys suggest to me your fav Spotify soundtrack for depressed, lonely, and sad people like me. Appreciate it <3

Name a song that makes you feel alive, empowered, and fearless.

When you listen to it, you feel you can do anything.

Song+artist

heyy mine is vanteindo ! u can check out my playlist if you like :)

im bored so...

Tell me something you hate about yourself. Could be anything, from appearance to personality trait.

@TM very well said. The question I asked is mostly stemming from my own self-war. I have been hating myself for these past months. From my appearance to my personality. I keep thinking and thinking about the things I did in the past, like was I ever present? Was I ever loved, or heard or seen? Was I the person I thought to be? I feel like I am losing my identity within myself. I am not confident, I never was, I am not pretty enough, I am not good enough. Thats what I think most of the time. The one thing I hate is other people asserting authority over me. I do not want that ever. So if I sense the slightest clue that that's whats happening I go wild. and then i feel guilty. I comfort myself and move on. But then it happens again. and again. its a loop of sadness and despair and anxiety. im so tired.

@TM yes, i try to just focus on me and my goals, cause remembering and overthinking about past will only trigger more emotions.

@wuckert-rhea did you just copy what I wrote earlier under the post? :)

@SSSnow for me Indian guys on YouTube helped a lot during exams. But also practicing Leetcode helps too.

@Peek_A_Boom well, crying in the corner is my forte.

been more confident in me, and be forthcoming. Being able to voice out what I needed.

would like that very much tbh. At least I would not feel so pathetic and sad over the reality that is life.

@TM I am a firm believer. I only and only trust in ALLAH (swt). and no one else. I do not know if this reply is referred to me or in general, but yeah I know what ur saying.

I hate myself, and I hate my life. And mostly I hate my sister.

She does whatever she wants. She is selfish at times, and a very mean person. We fight all the time, and when I cry she never comes to console me. I have always always been in her shadow. It's like everything is hers. and not mine, I'm just sharing it with her.

I am exhausted and tired. I feel pathetic for fighting over things that are not even mine, to begin with. She makes me feel miserable.

I wish I was born alone.

@Cold-Sun well thats a whole other scenario.