Posts made by The traumatized

1. Attak on titan
2. Black clover
3. The promised neverland
4. Magical girl site
5. Naruto

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

@chEEseCakEeeEeE internal peace.

@Ice_cweam thnx, I rlly appreciate it.

Sometimes things get weird;
The less you know,
the less you hurt.
Sometimes people you trust may deceive you;
Say stuff that truly affects you,
your heart hallow and empty.
Sometimes without any signs,
things mess up, leaving you bare.
I tend to get caught up pretty easily,
leading to disappointments.
All I want is a new start in life...
Move to another continent,
Forget everyone here,
New beginning,
New reputation.
I'm tired of feeling so alone even though I'm surrounded...

Sometimes, I often wonder why something shouts as loud as thunder
It was there inside of me, hiding for a reason

Sometimes, I looked at the sky and hurtle a cry
Maybe because of hurt but still, I'm wondering why

As I wake up in the morning, the light blinds me from darkness
my heart is filled with such sadness
I am an ordinary person with a broken heart and shame everywhere
I can't believe this pain inside and shame elsewhere

These unexpressed feelings of mine will never let me be fine
I hope tomorow as I looked up the sky,
all my doubts, pain and hurt will die..

@Ice_cweam same here

Enveloping the room,
Leaving everybody isolated.
Nothing to do, nothing to say,
Just silence.

Leaving an uncomfortable feeling,
With even those you are closest to.
So close to talking,
Yet so far.
Just silence.

Cold, dark, and alone,
Your feelings bottled up.
Your thoughts screaming to get out,
Wrapped up in your own world.
Inconsolable and suffering,
Just silence.

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness,
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under.
I yell for help, but no one is there to hear it.
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail,
fighting to stay above the darkness,
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me,
and I slowly begin to give in,
to the feeling that lies below the water line.
The waters starts to fill my lungs,
the lungs that once held so much life,
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that.
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness,
but why doesn't someone grab my hand,
pull me from darkness's grasp?
Because no one knows I stand at the boundary,
the boundary between light and dark,
so I give in to the thing that holds me.
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water,
so I slowly slip below the world of consciousness,
undetected by the occupants of that world.
I don't want to fight anymore.
I've given into darkness.

House full of people but still alone
You feel the love from your family
but still alone...Here I sit wondering
where I went wrong, The pain of being alone
is the hardest..Wanting it to end asking yourself
if it ever will...Thinking only I can change the things
I hate in my life, but how can you change something
that is always the same..you wake-up day in and day out
doing and moving the same no day different then the
next. Waking up and falling asleep alone...

@linhaha tnx

@Genny-the-B tnx

Trapped with nowhere to turn, life is changing beyond my control,
causing this deep ache in the bottom of my soul.

Someone else is pulling the strings,
oh to fly, oh for wings.

Escape, I want to dig my self out,
filled with despair, filled with doubt.

Mute not able to express,
this gnawing pain and feeling of relentless distress.

Tears that is not visible to the naked eye,
silent screams that no one can hear.

I try to speak but nothing can express,
this feeling of sadness and worthlessness.

Emotional pain, walks with me through the day,
and sleeps with me through the night,
leaving me depletes with no strength to fight.

Anger for not having the courage to turn things around,
keeping me anchored to this remorse,
not able to untie the chains and change my course.

False pride rules supreme,
always there to whisper in my ear.

So i joined this site to look for a guide,
bt all i came across were people driven by a lust.

Time, wasted and badly spent,
lots of hurt, lots to repent.

Solace, please come and calm my soul,
for this is what I need to make me whole.

Empathy, what I need is for someone to see,
someone to see the real me.

Love with no strings,
just giving generously amongst other things.

Words, when used as a weapon can cut like a knife,
capable of doing so much damage and take the joy out of life,

Maybe it's all my fault,I deserve a verbal assault.

Not a bruise on my body,
only scars on my soul.

I would really appreciate to talk with anyone

There's a cold dark corner
in the back of my room,
it speaks to me
and says I'm coming for you.

As I lie on my bed
in the fetal position,
my eyes are closed
hoping and wishing.

Maybe that one day
my dreams will come true,
that I don't have to be here
so down and blue.

The corner keeps talking
about how I'm going to die,
all I can do
is lie there and cry.

As the corner gets closer
and takes me in,
my soul starts to burn
as so does my skin.

My bones shall lie there
turning to dust,
my bed surrounding
nothing but rust.

My pain and misery fall from the sky
So hard I try to ignore it, but it still gets by.
Surrounded with memories of what could have been,
The hatred screams under my skin.
Pulsing through my veins is the anger I feel.
Wounds break open as soon as they seal.
Darkness surrounds me with every step I take.
I manage a smile, but do you know it's a fake?
I laugh when people talk to me,
But inside I'm dying, wishing they could see
I'm as different inside as I am the same.
Wish they could see they're not to blame.
I know the truth, but it's locked in my heart,
And now more than ever, it's tearing me apart.