Posts made by S_Dawn

so this is about to get really deep and personally and everyone is about to learn something new about me...okay story time!
so last summer i became very depressed and very very suicidal because my mom hated me and i had just found out that my dad isnt my biological father and i had no friends at all and i was sick and tired of sitting in my room and crying to myself trying to figure out what to do so i thought to myself "hey im gonna go pop some pills and let the world fade away into an endless black hole because nobody cares enough to even notice the bloody cuts and scars on my wrists and the fact that i havent eaten in like 2 weeks" so i walk on into my parents bathroom and start pulling out a ton of different medication and i had my phone and i actually like did my research and found out what i could OD on fastest (im not gonna share that info so dont even think about asking) and then i took those pills into my room and just stared at the bottle and cried thinking im gonna die and nobody is going to care im gonna die and someone will find me and say "oh she was so happy" and nobody will know that they were oh so terribly wrong and that i was so unhappy and depressed all the time with nobody to talk to except for myself so then i was like okay lets do this and i started poppin pill after pill but before i could get anywhere close to an OD my 4 year old sister walked into my room which i had thought i locked the door and she didnt say a word all she did was come over to me and sit in my lap and hug me we sat there for 5 minutes before she asked why i was sad and all i could tell her was that i love her and thats when i realized that al i needed was one reason to live and my lil sis is that reason she is the only person in my life thats holding me here and yeah im still depressed asf and yeah i still have suicidal thoughts and yeah sometimes i self harm but i know im not going to do anything major because i have that one thing holding me here and all i have to do is look at her lil angel face with big brown eyes and her unique adorable smile and i know i will not- no i refuse to leave her so for those of you who are dealing with suicidal thoughts or actions just find that one thing to hold you here im not gonna lie things are still going to be tough but your reason for life makes things easier

@stranger_danger what was that last part i couldnt here ya:face_with_tears_of_joy:

@ice-king okay thats just nasty :face_with_tears_of_joy:

@ice-king :face_with_tears_of_joy: :face_with_tears_of_joy: :face_with_tears_of_joy:

@stranger_danger my mom told me not to take candy from strangers...but ive never listened to her b4 so what do ya got

@ice-king aww thank ya :grinning_face: and idk havent really thought about it much

@stranger_danger he took my cookie :crying_face:

@ice-king lmao i wanna go to paris

@ice-king nooooo dats my cookie

@ice-king france

@stranger_danger lmao last i checked it was ded

@beeski42 nothing happened to me just my friends and im lowkey confused but its fine

welp I left for 2 days and now everythings fallin apart sooo yeah this is officially awkward since idk what to dooo noooow...sooo ig hmu

@boots22 wtf did i miss i was only gone for 2 days!!!! idk if i count as your "family" but are you done with me too cuz i did absolutely nothin

yaaaaaay im happy for ya :smiling_face_with_open_mouth_smiling_eyes:

mmmk so you are really cool and i enjoy talking to you because we have the same mindset about most things so its cool to know someone that i can relate to also you have a great taste in music cuz you like the same bands as me :face_with_tears_of_joy:
and you are really sweet so i hope you find a girl that appreciates that cuz you deserve it!!
p.s. you cant fly so dont jump off any buildings!!! :face_with_tears_of_joy:

@boots22 lol dont worry Boots ik who i am and nobody is changin that

@boots22 i am my own person i dont base my life on what others are calling me

@kat_15 i kinda agree but at the same time i dont like i think you should look nice but i dont think you should have to be dressy cuz thats not my style im more of a hipster tumblr type so im not into being dressy

@boots22 lol yeah i like NF and i agree about the label thing i dont normally say im emo but thats what others say i am so i go with it because i fit the stereotype ig