Ok.....idk how to start this off so imma just start from the top....
I was born at a very young age......
Nonono....thats not how its goes....
Time to be serious now. Imma literally tell you guys what has been going on in my life over the past month bc life is hard, life is wonderful, life sucks, god is good(more on that later), and life.....life is life...
Imma just warn you guys now, this is gonna be a rollercoaster. Its gonna get dark, happy, incredible, sad, and maybe some other things that I cant explain.
I'm serious. This is the darkest thing ive ever written on here. You might come with mixed feelings that will be hard to process in a few ways. Pls....just be warned
As litteraly one of you know, I went to a church camp over the course of the previous Thursday to Sunday. It was awesome, it was truly life changing. It was fulfilling for a Christian kid looking for purpose. Yes, I'm a Christian. I believe in the father God, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Ridicule me if you wish but that's not what this is about.
P.s. If you love the Lord like I do wassup brudder. If not and you hate me for what I believe in, take it up my lawyer, judge, father, savior, brother, friend, divine conqueror, leader, and everything I cannot even comprehend bc he is my everything, he is my almighty, and he is the one who is past, present, and the future of us all. Frankly idc what you think if it's not about how much you love God. Imma stop now.
When I got home from the weekend, me and my brother, dad, and mom were at my mom's chiropractic office just chilling and talking about how much I learned over the weekend and how I was gonna help my family with what I had learned. Well, after awhile my dad decided to walk home bc he wanted to.
We have a phone tracking app for the four of us so we can know where each of us are at any time. He didnt even make it 2 miles away from my mom's office when his tracker stopped moving. We assumed he turned his phone off bc he's done it before when he doesn't want to be disturbed by anyone. We became worried as we left about an hour later, and we decided to drive past where his tracker was. We didnt see him or any sign of him. We figured that he did indeed turn off his phone and he was already back home. Keep in mind that we live less than 15 miles from my mom's office, its not that far of a walk on flat ground. After we got home, we realized that dad wasn't home. My mom and brother went back out to look for him while I stayed home and prayed bc I was tired mentally, physically, and spiritually bc I had an awesome time at the camp. When my mom and brother came home without my dad, we became worried. We all went to bed expecting him to be home by morning. My mom was the first to wake up, noticing that my dad wasn't beside her. She got dressed and took the car to go look for him again.
She arrived at the road where his tracker stopped. She found police cars, fire trucks, and an ambulance all around where my dad stopped.
He was struck by a car and killed by a hit and run car, July 30th. The day I got home from camp. They are still looking for the guy driving the car. He hit my dad so hard that pieces of his car flew off, my dad's shoe flew uphill into a yard, and flung my dad into a ditch. Where he laid for God knows how long, possibly suffering. Hopefully my dad was killed on impact. With closer inspection of the tire tracks in the mud and on the road, the person behind the wheel was gunning for my dad, faster than 40mph. My dad was a brilliant genius, he wouldn't have walked on the road, he was walking on the side of the road.
With the help of friends and family, ive been able to cope with the fact that my mentor, the only person who could ever be as close to matching my mental process, my best friend, and my dad is not gonna be here to hug me when I graduate high school or college, when I get married, when I have my first child, or just to even hug me for no reason other than he loves me.
My dad, he was loved by all. He was a magician, a mentalist, a Santa Claus, a story teller, a caring, kind hearted man that made everyone laugh with his corny dad jokes and his long winded stories that could make you cry and laugh. He could make the greatest story in just 5 mins. He could make you laugh, he could make you cry, and most of all he could make you think about life and how much you really love everything in life without knowing it.
When I said I wanted to talk about everything, I meant it. I want to thank my gf @Daysia for helping me the most. We fell in love shortly after she and her previous bf broke up. From her side of the story, I was the only one who could make her laugh in her dark times. I was the only one who made her heart skip for the first time with my poetic jokes and phrases about love. Me? I mean.... Of all ppl me?... I was being myself, I was being a friend toward someone who needed to laugh and smile. I got it from my dad btw😁. She fell in love with me, I mean the real me. Over time I realized that I had an admirer, someone who wouldnt leave me no matter what I did or what I said. I fell in love with her devotion and her cute smile. It started with more awkward conversations than I care to admit. It's filled with more "I love you"s and emojis than I can comprehend. It's going places where I can only imagine and desire, and so far I'm liking the previews in my head.(not like that!....ok...im lying....its a whole lot of that😏😁)
Oh and yea...was gonna announce this bc I love you guys and I know you love me. My birthday is Aug 6th. What a time for....everything. They say your 16th is supposed to be special...oh boy it is.
Just know that I'm better than I was. I'm feeling far better. I'm pretty sure in done with the majority of crying. I'm prolly not gonna be on tws for the next week or month. Imma just say thanks in advance for all the "I'm sorry"s. Sorry, didn't mean to sound rude.
If you're a pray-er, pls pray. If you're a wish the best of luck, wish me all the luck. If you're a you'll be in my thoughts, keep me and my family there for a while.
This is not a fare well, but this is a if I dont see ya soon. Cya later friend.
I love you all(no I'm not suicidal)
I'll be on when I can
I'll be praying for you all, as I assume you'd do the same for me
Goodbye my friends and family of tws
Ya boi puggy out for awhile