Best posts made by onyx_the_kitten

so I went through all that trouble for my boyfriend for our 7 month anniversary, and I find out hes cheating on me. im so fucking done with people rn. I try to be kind and trusting and he goes and does something like that. anyway life update, Im fucking single now and mad as hell.

I started dating again, and I met a super sweet guy , hoping it'll turn out ok. wish me luck.
(you don't actually have to wish me luck lol)
hes super sweet and ive noticed the difference in how he treats me rather than my ex did.
plus we have way more in common than I did with my ex, so its actually going really great. <3

ok so I was at work right? (I work at a vet clinic). I was assisting in surgery, and I had already completed one other that day. well once we got to the suturing I got light headed and my vision started going to black. I couldn't see at all, and i'm kinda used to this happening cause I do get light headed and lose balance and vision sometimes, just blood pressure issues. so i'm standing there, cant see shit, and I start going numb, cant feel my legs , my arms, my face, nothing. I start kind slapping myself so I wouldn't fall asleep, or fall backwards, it didn't work lmao. I felt like I was floating in space, with no vision or feeling, I wake up on the floor being cradled by my boss (like the super important one who legit owns the clinic) shes asking if im ok, if I can hear, and im like "yeah" and so she calls an ambulance and gets me hooked up to some monitors. my blood pressure was so low it said error and we had to retry multiple times to get it to work. so by that time the ambulance was in the building, they came in the office door, and I was fine at that point , drinking water, sitting up, embarrassed as fuck, and they look down and one of the dudes says" shes super plae she needs to get immediate attention" and I had to explain to them that im super pale because im goth, its on purpose. so they just start laughing at the dude, and I felt so bad, it was so funny. so they put me in a wheel chair, im being driven out to the ambulance and this lady pulls up behind us and I shit you not starts trying to park in the handi cap spot that the ambulance is infront of, honking, and claiming its "her spot" and flashing her handi cap card. my boss was out there with me and she was so chill about it she just dead ass stared the woman down and calmly explained the situation. and when the woman tried yelling at her she hopped in the ambulance with me and before she slammed the back door , yelled to the woman " the handi cap card explains a lot ." I didn't even know what was happening it was so surreal lmao. so it turns out I locked my knees which can cause you to faint, I didn't even know that was a thing., but apparently when you stand too long you can lock your knees and all the blood pools at your feet, so I was standing too long and knocked tf out.

mine personally are ghost, slipknot, and motionless in white. <3

he's a 60 lb 9 year old sulcate tortoise, and his name is Nazgul. I adopted him yesterday from the humane society. his previous owners had to give him up because he grew too large for their apartment. guys, please, if you get a sulcate please do your research, this applies to all pets. sulcatas can grow heavier than 200 lbs, and they need lots of land to roam. I have plenty of land for him to roam around, and he is now in his forever home. but please guys, don't get sulcatas expecting them to stay the size you got them as. I hope this came as a good lesson to any who are considering getting one or just any pet in general. <3 <3 <3 oh and P.S. he wiggles his butt when he gets shell rubs :3

@cuteguy1234 some people in this world don't go by looks. take some notes.

@Lurker thank you, I think I do need some good friends rn, my friends irl are helping me get through this too. <3

@cjko my mental illnesses, my trust issues, and my lack of empathy and understanding. I am trying to care more and im working on empathy/sympathy.

@ninja-boy living with a toxic relationship with my mother isn't going to be an option in my future. im not saying this is everyones experience but me personally the pro's of living alone just outweigh the cons of living with family.

also the most important con about living with family...… sexy time is going to be verrrryyy awkward if you have an S.O. so that's something to think about.

my boyfriend and I are coming up on 7 months now, but idk what to get him. we usually do little stuff like candy or a little flower but 7 months is kinda a big deal. any gift advice?

@AuroraFan oml, we don't have that kind of money XD. but that actually is a pretty cool idea, ill be saving that one for the one year anniversary lol.

@Empire-of-dreams hey, I can talk if you need to

@Abc-xyz RYDEN IS REAL AND THE GOVERNMENT KNOWS IT! TELL US THE TRUTH ABOUT NORTHERN DOWNPOUR!...….if you get that reference I love you lol

@du-du-du-dora yes its called being high as kite.

@血液-酔っ interesting choice. lol

@WtfJudith lol I looked at your signature and couldn't help but follow you.

@dusty127 tbh, in certain circumstances if the right song is playing, yes, lol but if its one I don't know, or im not feeling, no way in hell ill be able to dance to it lol.

@toothlis1052003 I can help, myself being a girl I think im the most qualified, and it depends on what kind of girls youre wanting cause that all needs specific advice, vague will not help you in this situation.

@cuddlebirds my dad and pet. im closer to my dad and my baby boy ( hes a huge tank of a tortoise) is too precious not to save.

@TheGoldenMole I can whole heartedly say I relate to this. I feel bad cause I want to be friendly person and I consider myself to be very kind. but when I meet new peole that I don't deem "worthy" of my attention I just avoid eye contact after its shown that they aren't really my speed. I know that sounds horrible and im actually quite disappointed in myself for this mindset . I can help with specific situation questions, like how to give off the vibe that you don't want to talk, or if you need to change your headspace completely I can help with that as well.