post cute pictures of your pets

My friend and I have been really good friends since the 3rd grade. I have a really big crush on him and I'm not sure if it's just because I'm craving a childhood romance where we grow up together, fall in love, and spend the rest of our lives together like in TV shows. But this has been off and on for about a year after we met. How do I know if I really want be with him or if it's just that I watch too much tv?