What it says on the tin..BTW I am autistic / ptsd / adhd.

I ended a 3 year friendship due to a wording I put and I mentioned her name. She said she was hurt by this. The said blog was deleted. I completely hold my hands up to it. I'm not going to blame any of the above. I do this and its a pattern friendships don't last. For me and thus was the longest one I had . I told her because I hurt her by mentioning her . It was best I walk away from this friendship as she deserves better and not me. The way I heal and get over this is that I block and erase everything from social media etc ..its how I move on and its me mentally unpacking my shit having ptsd I have to do this I don't want to be stuck in the trauma . I have cried so much tonight and today's I dont think I can cry anymore. I am hurting but its for the best. I suck at friendships. Always have.

@Salty-Dawgg hey feel free to inbox me and we can chat

@lulitaa we are just best friends thats all ..she is the only one that really knows me inside out. Ive never had this with any other friendship. Sorry to hear about you and your gf. I hope all that you situation sorts it self too

Yesterday yesterday, I did ma workout after that chatted to my best friend..and it was somewhat heated..think its the first time we have actually had an argument. Now it feels awkward as fuck. Which I hate. I'm not going into the details of it all. But I kind came here and made a profile because I'm feeling empty without talking. And when your autistic like me it was part of my routine. And now I don't feel that a person needs to talk to me 24/7 I don't. Just the odd hello I am happy. But now just feeling a wee void. I did send a message to her lastnight saying goodnight I got no response and I don't know to do. Or how to go about it. Do I just leave her and wait ot get back to me . Or just stew and simmer . I hate fucking feeling like this. She is as just stubborn as I am too. Banging ma head against wall.

Hi

I am new here just looking for friends.. someone who can fire my brain. I like true crimes / unsolved mysteries / serial killers etc.

I am into all sorts of music but at the moment EBM , VNV NATION / solar fake . And many others / but I have an eclectic taste and it can range to classical too.

I don't wish to engage in men who are horny or women . I am asexual and not looking. I just want friends . I'm irish but born in England , I do weightlifting and I enjoy the great outdoors. And I own two cats . Im a Whovian too ( doctor who) and I am covered in tattoos to many to mention.