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Hey there so this is a long slightly complicated thing... Bare with me...so I met this girl about a year ago or so, we have talked almost every day since we started dating for awhile but unfortunately we ended up breaking up and being in a situation ship for a really long time she would always tell me she liked and loved me but couldn't be In a relationship, for awhile I tried to be understanding and stick around because she asked me to. I always want her to be happy so I would do anything I could, eventually I started to feel really sad and confused because she would always cuddle with me kiss me and all that and it was messing with my head because she would tell me she doesn't wanna date specifically me but then come back around to get the love and stuff I give, only for her to eventually tell me she doesn't want it again. One day we finally came to the agreement to just stop taking....we did. For 3 weeks and then she reached out to me again saying she missed talking to me and didn't see why we couldn't be friends, and that love I had for her came flooding back and I said hey okay sure we can talk knowing that I still loved her, unsurprisingly we ended up kissing cuddling, even kinda of going on dates, and she wants me to ask her to go to a dance and she is even talking about moving in and long term stuff but still sits at the doesn't want a relationship thing. She tells me she has a condition of some nature called rad( reaction attachment disorder) she will have her momments where we are both super happy and then the days where she is super short and dry with me and doesn't really wanna talk and ends up being out with her friends all day, and well I'm happy for her to be out with her friends, I always really miss her and can't stop thinking about her.. to be clear I do value my own life and I do have jobs and goals and hobbies that I do so I wouldn't say I'm obsessed per se. She informed me of a guy that he manager at her job is trying to hook her up with and she told me she wasn't interested but because of the no official " label" of her and I she tells the dude she isn't interested in dating him. But the guy is persistent and keeps showing up to her work and texting her and because we aren't really official but she basically treats my like a significant other Im in a position where I don't really have any say over the whole thing. Ultimately it causes me to have days where I m just super sad and I'm always thinking about what I did wrong to not be good enough for her and spending hours blaming myself. I really don't understand what's happening here and I'm not in a place where I can understand whats going on or what to do on my own....and I would really appreciate any help...I'm sorry this is so complicated. Thanks for reading it means a lot to me :)