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@kev123 this STORY. not stories...

You also need to realize that sometimes people need to be left alone when they're depressed and suicidal. Some are just thinkers, not actually going to do anything. The thought does count that you offer to be there, but sometime all that head petting and shoving articles at us to read and tips that CNN or whatever says is ideal, isn't always, You never know how someone else feels until you've been in their shoes and walked down the same path. It's better to ask HOW can I help and wait and listen to what they say then presume you know what's right and annoy them by making them think you are a know it all and don't value them to listen to what they want to tell you...

@kev123 it should have been THESE stories then...

@calisthenics

...not really...kinda annoyed me a bit. that's part of the usual you'll be ok crap I usually hear. It's tiring and stressful. Like hearing I'll get a job soon. How can you be so damn sure I am. People who don't have to worry about jobs, where to sleep, finding food, can't usually understand that they're hurting you by promising you in a way that you'll get a job soon. Honestly, I know that if I came into a fortune and could stop worrying about the basics, I'd be helping my depression be cured. To me, a stable job is a holy grail of sorts. When I was working, I was positive in life. Now that no one wants me, idgaf. I have supplies that I saved money for a while to jut disappear into the woods for good. I've been waiting too damn long for my life to turn around for the good. And like I said earlier, I AM trying to help myself, but it's worse than going up the steepest, iciest, challenging wall. NO ONE IS HELPING ME. NO FAMILY. NO FRIENDS. NO ONE. I'm basically going hungry on the streets with only someone giving me a temporary roof over my head. I have to leave at the beginning of July.

@g-a

So all that gay guys are good for are ugly guys?

there was talk that a Christian scientist proved that there was something or someone before the big bang. It's true the elements were there waiting to be blown up, but somebody had to light the match to get it started....and at the church I go to we prayed over a man who was really sick. He was dying. In literally a month after praying all month, the doctors were stunned that he was healing and getting better. I'm not kidding. I never believed any of this miracle stuff, but seeing it happen was amazing. I don't call that a coincidence, because he was told he only had a few more months. Now he's much better and slowly healing...I could go on and on about my personal encounters with what I believe were angels or acts of God, but I'll leave it for a PM or something. Don't want haters coming at me.

If you could wish for anything, no strings attached, money and time can't bother it, what would you wish for? Why?

@littlegirly003

I was supposed to march in the 2001 Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade with my school's 8th grade band and chorus....but then September 11th happened. Oh lucky me. Stop whining about it. You can go to the beach another time.

@kat_15

I stop the pain and pointless usage of life. the "gift" of life? I never asked for it. What store can I return it to? I'm useless to society. I've been trying to get a job for years....and nobody even says no thanks. my family doesn't talk to me, I have no friends, and I live with mentally ill people in a "psych rehab" program. Not many people leave unless they violate rules or die. A guy has been here longer than I've been alive. If I was dead, then the room I'm in could go to one of these crazy mf-ers who need the help. If I had a job, I'd be better off. I have no $ for food, transportation, or a social life. I have nothing. All I have is a duffel bag I took from my parents' place. Didn't bother to take pictures of them with me since I knew they'd write me out of their lives. I heard my "mother" talk to one of her friends. She said YOU think YOU have problems with you child, meet Michelle. She has never tried to interact with me or love me. And another of her friends asked my older brother who's a special ed teacher that since he teaches retards, he should be able to help me. See? no support whatsoever from "family" and my "friends" took all my money, used me, abused and raped me, and left me on the street. I have a fucking reason I want to die. No amount of shoulder petting and bs saying it'll be fine would EVER help. Having depression over losing a job is one thing. Medical is it's own minefield.

of course. I masticate both in public and at home on a daily basis.

(look it up you dorks if you don't know what it means)

@humanbean89

• meant than presume*

@calisthenics

I have been. I've been fighting to try and get ANY job. now they want you to be over qualified for the simplest jobs. Back when I was in school, all you needed to be a cashier at Target was a high school diploma...I've applied there many times...and nothing. I've applied to businesses that I have experience...and nothing...for almost 10 years I've been jobless, homeless, and SOL. It is hard to find money for food let alone happiness when nobody wants to help. I've gone to shelters in the past and they turned me away because people my age aren't homeless and jobless. She thought I was trying to steal from them. I want to go back to school, but I don't even have enough money for an application fee. I want to better my life, but society is making it pretty fucking hard to tread water. And once people hear I have depression and where I currently am staying, they treat me like shit. I am trying to fight the stigma of mental illness, but I am getting no help from anyone anywhere except the measly social security checks each month that don't really help.

Fine. Keep petting our heads and saying "you'll get better soon. You'll get a job soon. It'll be better soon. Drink more water and eat healthy" if it'll make YOU feel better. But not actually helping hurts. Saying you understand someone's pain when you've never experienced it yourself hurts. Saying you'll be there no matter what and you aren't hurts. We need people to stfu and actually take the time to listen and not post all these self help crap posts online. We know what to do. We deal with it on a daily basis. Just because some famous celebrity died from suicide doesn't mean the topic is popular. IT IS ALWAYS HERE. Keep talking about it, no matter if some famous guy dies or if it was your friend. Putting it in the back of your mind 3 months after it's out of the news doesn't help. Be aware.