@kat_15
Really? I wasn't loved by my "mother" she told me she liked my brothers better, and that she wished she had never adopted me. I tried to ask her for help with my anxiety and depression and all...and she laughed and said grow up. I currently live in what's basically an insane asylum, a residential program for people with mental illnesses. I'm just depressed. I don't need to be in this type of setting. She ruined my life. I can't trust anyone because of her breaking promises on a weekly basis. I'll believe it when I see it. Out of my 2 brothers and I, she only searched MY room. Why? Because she was my mother and was allowed to intrude. Not even my diary was safe. I only had privacy when I was in the bathroom. I never had friends over the house because she hated every person I liked. I never had a beanie baby or anything popular because she didn't want to waste money. I was bullied in school for not having those things. I told her about being bullied, and she laughed and said serves you right. I told her that I wanted to be a physical therapist or a social worker when I grew up because I wanted to help people. She told me that I was stupid and would never amount to anything. I was over 18, legally an adult and by law was allowed to give permission if I wanted her in my psych appointments and all. I tried to say no, but she'd push her way in and lie to the doctor and said she new me better than I did myself. She had one doctor wrapped around her finger and would kick me out of the room to talk to him privately. She convinced him that I was an alcoholic. I only drink a tiny bit at social gatherings. Because of her I have no life, no friends, no social life, no nothing. My own brothers don't know how to interact with me because of what she did to me. The main reason why I'm struggling to be here is that I now have a 2 year old niece who is giving me a bit of a reason to live. I still kind of with that my attempt in 2009 was successful. Then I'd never see how awful the country has become.