Best posts made by humanbean89

@kat_15

Really? I wasn't loved by my "mother" she told me she liked my brothers better, and that she wished she had never adopted me. I tried to ask her for help with my anxiety and depression and all...and she laughed and said grow up. I currently live in what's basically an insane asylum, a residential program for people with mental illnesses. I'm just depressed. I don't need to be in this type of setting. She ruined my life. I can't trust anyone because of her breaking promises on a weekly basis. I'll believe it when I see it. Out of my 2 brothers and I, she only searched MY room. Why? Because she was my mother and was allowed to intrude. Not even my diary was safe. I only had privacy when I was in the bathroom. I never had friends over the house because she hated every person I liked. I never had a beanie baby or anything popular because she didn't want to waste money. I was bullied in school for not having those things. I told her about being bullied, and she laughed and said serves you right. I told her that I wanted to be a physical therapist or a social worker when I grew up because I wanted to help people. She told me that I was stupid and would never amount to anything. I was over 18, legally an adult and by law was allowed to give permission if I wanted her in my psych appointments and all. I tried to say no, but she'd push her way in and lie to the doctor and said she new me better than I did myself. She had one doctor wrapped around her finger and would kick me out of the room to talk to him privately. She convinced him that I was an alcoholic. I only drink a tiny bit at social gatherings. Because of her I have no life, no friends, no social life, no nothing. My own brothers don't know how to interact with me because of what she did to me. The main reason why I'm struggling to be here is that I now have a 2 year old niece who is giving me a bit of a reason to live. I still kind of with that my attempt in 2009 was successful. Then I'd never see how awful the country has become.

Did they have the U.S. there too? I've been told to go back to my own country, that only white people belong here...when in fact they TOOK IT BY FORCE from the Native Americans...Everywhere in history, the white man has taken what's not theirs and ruined the beauty of the land and culture. Look at the whites calling the police on innocent African Americans. Most people I've met who aren't white aren't racist. They just hate the way they are treated by the spoiled white people who think they are better than everyone else in the world. Look at the current "president". Disgusting. Look at all of the news stories that have been popping up for the last decade or so. EVERYONE CAN BE RACIST. Just like everyone can be any religion. I'm not white. I'm Asian and I'm Jewish. Racist people everywhere need a good asswhooping. Or treated bad as they treat others. But sadly, even if they did get a taste of their own medicine, they'd run crying to their lawyer. I saw something that white people were upset that there were no "white lives matter movements." Really? How stupid can they be. In this country, you have the best life if you are white. And blonde ladies get the better and higher paying jobs according to an article I read. I think we need another biblical flood to cleanse the Earth of all the BS...sheesh.

...yeah and they never walked on the moon (my dad works for NASA and the government)...and the Holocaust is just propaganda (I'm Jewish and have visited the camps as well as knew someone) Elvis is partying with aliens, Tupac is in a bunker hiding, and every person on this earth has common sense...….NOT!!! Everything you read, especially online isn't always true. Check the facts people. That's how misinformation spreads and causes problems....Do ya people not know how to read? I mean I kind of understand not teaching cursive in school nymore, but reading and checking facts? Y'all never did book reports growin up?

@rendezvous
Exactly. I was just about to say that.

@calisthenics

what if you never really had anyone. no close friends or family. your own adoption papers from the orphanage literally say "after a short fling a baby was born and taken to xyz orphanage" I've never known "love" lust, yes. love no. everyone I tried to love or trust fucked me over multiple times.

Sometimes you are FORCED into it. I was blackmailed and threatened by a boss/former friend/authority figure who was married into a relationship I didn't want but I kind of had to deal with it because I was homeless and they were my housing for the time. It is both a choice because you CAN and SHOULD have the ability to say no, but also a mistake because of the aftermath it could possibly cause...

@wtfjudith people don't care about others. especially in this country. Sex isn't sacred-like the way it used to be. And I know it wasn't consentual, but wasn't HE cheating though? His choice, and mistake...

@wtfjudith said in Is CHEATING a mistake or a choice?:

@humanbean89 said in Is CHEATING a mistake or a choice?:

@wtfjudith people don't care about others. especially in this country. Sex isn't sacred-like the way it used to be. And I know it wasn't consentual, but wasn't HE cheating though? His choice, and mistake...

He was cheating, yes. What’s even worse in this situation is that this wasn’t a consensual act.. I get that sex isn’t viewed the same way by everyone, but the thing remains that what he did was fucking wrong, to the wife he cheated on and to you

Thanks. I know...but I didn't want to be on the streets that winter...so.....yeah...

ignorant people who think they know everything and how to solve the issues, but only are making the matters worse...politicians, bigots, arrogant people, people who try to start problems, especially online where you're anonymous...personally it gets darker, but mainly asses that are ruining society by not listening to others and valuing everyone regardless of race, background, political party, religion, gender, etc. I don't want a utopia per se, but I just wish there weren't as many asses here on this planet...

if you're les or bi i'd hit you up

My goal is the same every year. To not have a specific goal, so that way I don't feel pressured to do something, and I don't feel like a failure if I didn't complete it by the deadline. Not procrastinating, but just noticed that since most people don't stick to their goals/resolutions for more than a few months, why bother to even try...

@albertolok

Could it be a mass murder? You'd only murder 1 time...(loophole ) so I'd fake invite all the people I hate to a "party" and go from there...mwahahahahaaaa

am I old, are you using autocorrect on your phone, or does the younger generation not know how to spell? come on...

@wtfjudith mentally...sort of....physically...mostly....financially....fuck no...

If you were a kick ass outstanding soccer player and proved to be and not just a pretty boy, then yes. Since I don't know you in rl...sorry but no. If I was mass media any girl who'd go for anything with a dick, then prob yes.

@justelle10

what? I know how to spell would and proper grammar... I was now going TO kick your butt....not I was now going and kicked your butt.....just saying...

@stranger_danger

I read that in a fiction novel. I think by Dean Koontz. I'm not a guy and I said ouch...

@hazard by looks you look like the everyday pretty boy....but I guess people in sports want the sterilized version of reality. not all are pretty...you ARE kinda cute, but as a soccer player? I'd have to see you in action with your shirt off...

@justelle10 well you ARE cute...how old are you?

@ᑕᖇiᗰᔕ-ᑎ
here's something easier for me:

Accept an apology from my best guy friend David's murderer (yes I did have a friend killed a few years back)….or forgive my mother for ruining my life

No contest. I'd hug the murderer.

And many people say what they think other's would like, or that is P/C...I admit I wanted to kill many people who hurt me, or other things like that. I'd take the blame, especially if I was the POS I am right now in today's society. Then maybe I'd get killed in jail and be finally dead.