@ragnar Sam Smith, Phillip Phillips, Nelly <3 Kodaline, and Tech N9ne!

@willoww Gotta love them bananas. Especially banana baby food. Yummmmm. drool

@boots22 "Science has not yet taught us if madness is or is not the sublimity of the intelligence." -Edgar Allan Poe

I would like to know a little about you so would be great if you dropped a song that relates to you in the comments, music is life so don't mind any and will listen to all. Mine is Control by Nightcore (

@willoww Lol your friends are wried, we're all human and obs have to eat. So yes I am perfectly comfortable ^.^

@willow @marcel papi all the way, lol he's really nice to speak to and not a creep <3

@ragnar I love humorous, adventurous, kind/loving, courageous, strong-willed, open-minded and dominate people <3

@sup You can be one of my tws best friend ^.^

@sup <3 anytime BEST FRIEND!

@ragnar beautiful but stupid so I can make fun of them. Kidding lol they can't be smarter than me or imma dump them

Suicide is ending one's owns life, right? Once it's done it can not be undone. Depression is how you process your pains that slowly eat at your brain as you keep losing motivation of doing things that once made you happy, or maybe you were never happy. Well, my dear friend who is suicidal and reading this, you are the one who has to pick yourself up because everyone (What I mean by everyone is your family and real friends) does not understand what you are going through. We cannot read your mind so therefore we cannot help you unless you actually say how you feel and why. The whole thought of no one loving you is just in your head, people actually care that is in your life. If you're in a toxic environment like abuse going on around you, phone for help because you can endure so much tell your breaking point. You are in control of your life no one else, we cannot make you get up and do something for yourself, we cannot force you to speak and we definitely cannot stop you from killing yourself as you'll just hide it anyway. I'm sorry to say this next line but hear me out, suicide is selfish. Yes, depression is very real and hard to deal with or understand. You have family who grew up with you, friends you have bumped into and became a part of their life and if your in school teachers that know you or if you work you've become a part of a system where your purpose is important as everyone has roles they play a part of at work. You are needed and once you kill yourself everyone will blame themselves or will be in shock. Sometimes suicide causes a ripple effect and your really close loved ones will want to follow your steps so they can be with you. Is that what you want? No, no one deserves to die before their time, your time is not suicide that is you playing your own god deciding to opt-out. If you did succeed with a suicide who is to find you? The person to find you will be scarred for life and will develop a mental illness. It's selfish, you want the pain to go away but suicide is not the answer. The answer is finding hobbies, doing something productive, going to school and getting a job or if you didn't finish school that is okay find a job, build a social connection so you have supports for when you're sad, going to therapy and getting professional help because they will understand the science of what going on with you, eating healthy and getting the proper nutrition, getting the right amount of sleep, listen to happy music instead of sad (Search up the law of attraction, that really helped me out in dark times. Do positive things, say positive things, and think positive things and positive things will come to you. That's my personal guide of help), if your into it meditate or get into yoga, and get in some exercise throughout your day.

My brother, the eldest child out of 11 children committed suicide. He would have been 29 today if he were alive. My other older brother was the one to find him in my moms basement on February 23, 2019. The image of his hanging body will forever be engraved in my brother's head, I have not seen it but I can picture it and it fucks with my mental health as well. We were shattered and we came together as a family to make sure we all knew we were there for each other because we don't want to see any one of us following in my eldest brother foot steps. Life is truly hard but it's how you cope with it and bounce right back up stronger than ever so you can help others that were in your situation and give some knowledge and guidance. That is the true purpose and remember that, you are stronger than what you are thinking in your darkness.

@Phaéris Posting on a site like this about suicide is not smart, you need professional help. People say as they please behind a screen and no hate but posting about something so dark no one really likes seeing or reding it. It's viewed as desperate and looking for attention, if you are really mentally ill you need to speak to a professional. Life is hard man but you got to do something productive for yourself and set goals so you can feel accomplished finishing one at a time, and you'll have meaning to life and purpose as you begin to understand yourself more. Also, you got downvotes because how you are speaking to your audiance, you are making death a game and blaming us when we don't know you and you are speaken down on us.

[link text]([link url](link url))I could possibly get some dislikes on my post but maybe some people agree with me.

Let me start off with how I came to think about my topic, I was scrolling through the gram (Instagram) and came across a video of a girl painting her face white saying "If trump wins" (throwing out there I am not an American but a fellow neighbor who watches America taking beatings after beatings), then the video switching off to a caucasian lady trying to intimidate the girl but with a darker foundation but stops right before she puts the makeup on saying "Oh wait that would be racist wouldn't it.".

My thoughts on this, I feel that the girl in the first video where she was painting her face white is just scared trump would win again as he is racist, and in his eyes, the Caucasians are more preferred within the country, it's a little humorous to me as I can understand where she is coming from wanting to fit in. Now my thoughts on the caucasian lady I feel she did not think thoroughly making her video, as some Caucasians (What I mean by that is Europeans, French and Germans (I could be missing one or a few) in that category, I will explain more about this further into my rant) have not lived the lives of the people who were slaves and killed off from the superior races throughout history. People of color within North America have been treated like shit for generations as it was being built.

People of color within North America have gone through so many hardships and trauma it's sad, at points other cultures other than Christianity were stripped, women and children of color were killed, raped, and enslaved, men of color were slaves or killed. The Caucasians in North America in our history had weaponry and machines helping them kill off people who did not have much to defend themselves with completely dominating the people who had helped the Europeans and French know the land, how to hunt, gave furs to and offered shelter. Other cultures from other regions were brought to North America as slaves to help build our countries. Racism was built by certain caucasian groups as they enslaved many people of color within North America, even bringing in other ethnic groups from different regions they have enslaved to build what we call home today in North America.

Now having talked about history, in today's world racism still exists. North America was built on white supremacy, yes through time people of color started receiving rights and freedoms but society is subliminal to racism especially most of Caucasians' ethnic groups, like the Europeans and French for example. If you noticed in today's society you have people who wear makeup wear lighter shades of foundation to get that lighter skin tone highlighting parts of their faces as it is considered beauty. We have police brutality going on, yes some of it is reported but there is so much more happening behind closed doors. We have so many powerful racist people working in fields that they shouldn't be working in but they get a slap on the hand once caught. We have racist sports team titles for the world to see not only that but our laws are still written in old context defining certain groups, for example, Indigenous people still called Indians, on my Canadian Status Card it is called "Indian Status Card" literally displayed across the card. We have caucasian people dressing up as a cultural character completely ignorant about how racist that is. So much more is happening that I cannot list off as it will make this paragraph even longer, so if you want you can list some more for me in the comments.

When I meant by some caucasian groups being superior is that there are some ethnic groups within the caucasian community who also endured hardships and trauma from the superior caucasian groups who were explorers and settlers. Examples of some Caucasians who were also exploited to violence and dominance from the superior races are the jews, famines, Polish and more that I cannot think of right now, you can also share in the comment section.

So overall I feel within North America it is racist making jokes towards people of color, as to people of color who make jokes of caucasian is only because we still face racism today with white supremacy. The girl in the video is just showing us that she does not want to continue to deal with racism from a politician who is suppose to bring equality to all but seems to favor Caucasians more, she just wants to fit in. Don't we all?

@captain_marvel You guys are adorable together ^.^

@evan-elderson Vanadium is cool, like that it has a lot of colors depending on it's oxidation state ^.^

@wtfjudith Lol I skipped mechanics a lot and didn't pass and some of my religion classes to go to the mall until my next class, because the mall was two blocks down from my high school.

@us-poet Lol love Mei, Lucio and Hanzo <3

@ragnar Sam Smith, Phillip Phillips, Nelly <3 Kodaline, and Tech N9ne!

@us-poet yes I do.

@evan-elderson yeah you'd make a great mod ^.^