Posts made by Amel

@_divv_roxx_ the thing is i'm already regretting it, not talking about it before I mean, when I had plenty of chances, when he wasn't this important to me, I can safely say that he's the most important person in my life after my family. and now, if I were to tell him and lose him, I'd regret that for the rest of my life, I'm not being pessimistic but I can't take the possibility of this happening away my head.
I feel like I'm in crossroad where I'm regretting some choices but can't make them again, between continuing the current relationship or taking risk God knows where could lead to which is i'm afraid of

when I entered high school, I met a guy who I became soon friend with him, he was funny, enjoyable, nice, I soon fell in love with him, at that time, I can say I didn't realize it, or more like I didn't take those feeling seriously, the time passed by, and my feelings were just growing, the more i know him, the more I liked him, I don't know if it was just me living in illusion but i thought he too liked me, he was coming seeing me more, he was always asking about me, and once, one of his friends talk to him referring to me as "yours", now it has been five years, he's dear friend of mine and I still like him, we never talked about our feelings and never I had the courage to confess, I can't afford to lose what we have now because of my selfish feelings, but those feelings has tired me, I tried forgetting about him, I sometimes force myself to stop talking to him but I still go back.
I love him, I can't confess to him,I can forget about him and I don't know what to do

I feel like my friend has changed on me lately, it has been a month, she doesn't talk to me unless for some urgent things or briefly, and whenever I try to open some discussion as we used to, she doesn't really react on it, we were really close just a month ago, and suddenly she changed, once she said that whenever she get angry on somebody, she treat them like strangers, and that's really how I feel I'm to her right now, the thing is I'm sure I never did her bad or anything, I want to talk to her about it but I'm afraid to open the topic, I tried but I couldn't, I wanted to ask if she is angry and whether I mistake in something and if so I'd apologize, but I really couldn't bring myself to do so, there is that thought of what if she just changed and no longer consider me as her friend, her and I were really close friends and that thought is tearing me apart, recently she quite spoke some harsh words to me so I don't really know