I am here for you if you want to open up and talk. Life is hard isn't it. What makes it harder is that we have no one to talk to in this society. No friends or family we can talk to to without being judged. Sounds to me that you may be hurting and need a friend. We all do.
I am new on this site. I am not familiar how to use it or how person person works.
Hey I am really sorry for what you are going through, no one should ever have to experience something like this. I wish you the best and truly believe that if you keep forging on ahead you will meet the person that will always be there for you and will be able to heal the wounds that you are pained by now. Always remember that time heals wounds but only if you are ready and strong enough for them to heal.