@Gabriella-Wall hi dear. She did suffer greatly. Please, I don't want to see you in that same situation (even though I don't know you , I do care). This disorder consumes a person (in more ways than one). And as Mike says - your organs will start to shut down. Hospital ought to have someone to talk with. Or your doctor. Or Group therapy. I do understand where you're coming from. This disease controlled my life for 3 years. Its always there at the front of your thoughts. Its hell. My thoughts are with you xxoo