i think u need a break from everything emotionally mentally and physically. its great that you are taking professional help which i hope it may work for you but i think may be you are going from healing process like even now u feel like this so broken u still holding it and keep moving dont stop now healing is not always be graceful one day u feel shit next day u feel fine it all about the discomfort then acceptance and then growth and yep people are all complex our these emotions feelings make us complex and that is normal and human. take care

@Cookie-KASPER that’s so adorable dumb people are always so cuteee

@Bonnibel u r right it's beneficial means gain knowledge I can't deny but I shall explain how it's some sense , non sense or sense !!
I didn't say it's good or bad to have one , i want to share this thought that , it's a idea or fear given by my surrounding, and it's not a birth gift,that I born with it. I adopt with like and dislikes. Nothing is good nothing is bad for me all are pure situation for a perticular moment all I should be aware and Conscious about it to deal b stv at I can , and I gain knowledge once it's past, it's dealt situation, do not make sense to deal a dealt part .