Dear Myself, what kind of person you will be in the future?
Those memories pop up suddenly when your leader told you something like “As far as I concern, you are unique, a needle in a haystack may become my answer about you. However, you need your ‘long journey’ to fully transformed as an adult, as if you have lack of wisdom. You are not lacking of wisdom, you really love your freedom, you are just ‘afraid’ to not fit with someone’s expectation. I know you always put your limit till your limit becomes infinity, your great job here made this company been better day by day. I trust you will grow even better than today”.
Now, try to recall what kind of person you were in the past?
When you were a kid, you told your parents, you will be a great detective ever, serve your country with loyalty, honour your life to be good, be good to people and reveal every inch of the black side of this world but with “your way”.
When you were in elementary school, you told your teachers that you will be a great scientist, to fight the virus and save people with your “breakthrough”. Your country will be your priority, you did attend all Science Competition in that time. Not bad though, you won one of Bronze Medal in 5th Grade and two Gold Medals in 6th grade.
When you were in high school, you changed all of your plans. Being a part of the student council with your colourful mark score is your priority. You have tried that, but you failed. Hence, you prefer to be part of “Flag Hoisting Troop” as a commander in three years. You also re-join Science plus Debate competition. Those trophies did not give you any explanation of life.
When you were in University, you changed all of your minds to be “I need everything to be perfect at any cost”. Moderator of Student Council, Basketball, Computer Design Course, Modern Islamic perspective (class) would be part of your transformation till you realize, you just follow everything as regular students did, dedication, everyone told it to you.
In your 21-23, you have been around for 4 companies, Chemical, Insurance, Bank, Whole trading and you were not satisfied with it, “I need more” you said. You joined a voluntary teacher and student study service around Indonesia. “Congrats, you are graduated with honour”, that Head of Dean told you.
Right after that internship ended, you got that job. A job that people dream of, If the German Company is the greatest company for employees. But you got bad memories of how harsh this world be. Political issues and reality of work isn’t like “The Intern” or “The Internship” movie in that time. You had to face “the real wild world”.
Then, you took your break off. You tried to apply your scholarship master degree, but a lot of drama been there. Hard? Yeh. That’s life. Then you decide to re-joined you applied student study service in 3 months till you finally said: “K. I want to take a break”. Once, right after you found “your new motivation”, you applied that fast track program to be a leader (as if you will be a leader in the future) till you ended in this company.
The time when you told your fellas that your relationship was not your priority, may always be your mindset till you grow up. See you now, you just think and care all about career life. Now, myself, will you make a new plan in this 26th or you will just let your heart fully heal? Will you make a new transformation or just enjoy every moment you had right now? Please re-read this post once you realize you have nothing to do. You just realized; people already have their own “life”. How about you? Will you just let it be like it be?
Wish you will find your answer like 3 months after you post this, myself.