Hey guys. I'm going through pretty hard time now. I have no clue what to do, where to go...
I kinda lost feeling to want something from life.
I'm living for sake of living not for particular reason.

Don't ask too many questions about it but let's just say there is a reason for me to believe that I have VERY, VERY small chance to get into a relationship with anybody. It's not about how I look.
Please just try to imagine that there is no chance that you will be ever loved by someone...I mean a partner.
What would you do with your life?
I have lots of hobbies, activities a love but it's just doesn't satisfy my soul or my heart.
I'm more spiritual than material type. I love forests, trees, all living things. I love peace and quiet. I love harmony and positive things although I can't find them these days.
I lost myself somehow, liie something died in my and it won't come back.
I'm looking for any ideas, suggestions, possibilities...
Please share your thoughts.

Ps: I was thinking of to become a monk but somehow it doesn't feel right so please don't suggest that😁

Thanks a lot!

@agent-peanut I want to live. I want to do something with my life. I want to be useful for others. To do something to make this place a bit better. But I just don't know how. My inner voice is awfully quiet. I'm just trying to find a hint which way to go. It's just not coming.
Life will always send you the things you need and I just thought that I want to get and advice from a stranger😊

@spaceboy thanks.
We always want things that we can't have. Sadly!

@savagelillgirl thank you for your kind words. I'll give it a try.

It's easy to forgive others, it's super hard to forgive yourself! If ever.

@spaceboy I know that. I have more that I possible deserve. Loving family, friends, work, home.
But there is a possibility that I'm about to loose it all.
The worst of all is that I feel like I lost myself.
Like literary I don't want to be with myself.
Sounds maybe stupid without an explanation but that's just not possible.
Thank you anyway for your encouraging words!

@what-is-this you nailed it. I want to love myself but I just can't. I want to forgive myself but I don't know how. Every time I look into a mirror I see myself and it's hard to stare for more that a few seconds. I don't mean the visual side. It's the inside.
I did something, I didn't hurn anybody or anything like that but I despise myself.
That's probably my problem. I don't like myself. But how to change it?
People like me a lot but I can't.

@spaceboy im off to bed. Thanks a lot. Didn't expect so much support! I WANT to believe you!

@what-is-this you nailed it. I want to love myself but I just can't. I want to forgive myself but I don't know how. Every time I look into a mirror I see myself and it's hard to stare for more that a few seconds. I don't mean the visual side. It's the inside.
I did something, I didn't hurn anybody or anything like that but I despise myself.
That's probably my problem. I don't like myself. But how to change it?
People like me a lot but I can't.

@spaceboy I know that. I have more that I possible deserve. Loving family, friends, work, home.
But there is a possibility that I'm about to loose it all.
The worst of all is that I feel like I lost myself.
Like literary I don't want to be with myself.
Sounds maybe stupid without an explanation but that's just not possible.
Thank you anyway for your encouraging words!

It's easy to forgive others, it's super hard to forgive yourself! If ever.

@savagelillgirl thank you for your kind words. I'll give it a try.

@agent-peanut I want to live. I want to do something with my life. I want to be useful for others. To do something to make this place a bit better. But I just don't know how. My inner voice is awfully quiet. I'm just trying to find a hint which way to go. It's just not coming.
Life will always send you the things you need and I just thought that I want to get and advice from a stranger😊

@spaceboy thanks.
We always want things that we can't have. Sadly!

Hey guys. I'm going through pretty hard time now. I have no clue what to do, where to go...
I kinda lost feeling to want something from life.
I'm living for sake of living not for particular reason.

Don't ask too many questions about it but let's just say there is a reason for me to believe that I have VERY, VERY small chance to get into a relationship with anybody. It's not about how I look.
Please just try to imagine that there is no chance that you will be ever loved by someone...I mean a partner.
What would you do with your life?
I have lots of hobbies, activities a love but it's just doesn't satisfy my soul or my heart.
I'm more spiritual than material type. I love forests, trees, all living things. I love peace and quiet. I love harmony and positive things although I can't find them these days.
I lost myself somehow, liie something died in my and it won't come back.
I'm looking for any ideas, suggestions, possibilities...
Please share your thoughts.

Ps: I was thinking of to become a monk but somehow it doesn't feel right so please don't suggest that😁

Thanks a lot!