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There is something that bothers me and I want to share it with you guys.
When you tell someone that you are depressed, the other person will say, "It's okay all of us like that". But does he know what do i feel? Or if i was saying that because I'm done or not ? What I mean is, don't say anything and you don't know the feelings of this attitude. Don't say that you are so and you are not So when someone tells you that he are depressed, you don't just say, "Oh, I am also depressed it's okay" .
No stay with him and support him, and tell him that everything thing will be alright soon just believe in god.

I think every day about when I will return home after a long day and sleep ... Just that.
Ohhh and about FOOD 🐰

I do not know where to start ... The story is that I met a friend and she was a nice person and we talked every day Then she told me about her boyfriend، That her boyfriend had been suffering since childhood with his father.And then after I was a positive person that makes her feel better or that's what I think I was telling me everything that bothers her ... Then she added me to a group where in this group there is her boyfriend and some of their friends .. anyway, I was shy at first but a day with a day I got used to them and they became my family.
Then I met someone in this group He was the one who made me believe in true love and that I felt safe with him whenever we spoke .. I decided to confess to him because I could not tolerate the feelings of jealousy and how the girls around him and i were far away, I forgot to say they were in Turkey and I am in Jordan
The day I admitted I was expecting to be rejected because I didn't feel that he had any feelings towards me ..
My confession was .. I love him, he is the only person who deserves these tears, I cry every day because of him and he is like the wall doesn't feel. I love him very much, he's my only hope ... He's my treatment .. My depression has diminished since I got to know him he is the best person I've ever seen in my life. I've known the meaning of love because of him ... I love him.
I told this friend to my friend and then i told him.

• I will shorten a bit -

After a relationship lasted two months on the sites of communication ... Two months of love .. Two months of sacrifice ... Two months of patience and hope ...
All these moments were not real or exist?!
She was a girl who made fake accounts. All of them were in the group. She was a girl and her friend ... Another friend of mine.. she was*
I still do not know the reason why they have done this terrible thing ... I have crashed and broken into someone else ... I hate love I am afraid of all kinds of love .. I do not trust anyone ... I tried to commit suicide more than once but this will not meet the purpose .. However, after this situation i got exposed to bad moments there's someone who was blaming me because of their broke up .. And my family pressing on me .. My friends think I am fine ..
I have become someone else I was a happy person, fun and smiling most of the time now became the harshest people and I cry every five minutes ... I'm tired no one understands what I feel ... I am lost .. My boyfriend who doesn't exist was the person who understands me .. But does not exist, i wish that there was someone like that fake person. I hate myself and I do love myself at the same time .. I wanted to tell someone about what I was feeling but I myself don't know what I feel ... I apologize if i upset anyone Thank you for reading anyway.
Bye-

@ansi At least I learned something from this position ... that I don't hold anyone easily and don't love anyone more than I need or trust one more than myself.

@adyyan i see that i was harsh on myself last couple of days .. i will take care of my heart now i hope nobody experience What i got into

@adyyan thank you , i appreciate your words .. i feel more better sharing my feelings actually

@ansi my family and i not that close but i have a friend even though she's not besides me but her heart are with me wherever I go ... It's the girl i mentioned in the beginning of the story she had the same thing but for 5 months .. what surprised me is that she's okay now .. I'm happy because that thing didn't effect on her the way it effects on me

@ansi i will 💙

@spaceboy i learned a lot , i know i became someone else but at least this made the new me ... Or a stronger person

@darkice thanks for your words , it means a lot ... I will 💙

@shaun-durwin I hope to get over it as soon as possible. This has left a big impact & a deep wound in my heart ... but I learned a lot from this wound ,
I will be fine soon.
Thank you