@Freshkid18 first of all admitting your darkness for your self and thats the first step you want to change for your self.. I appreciate it,what ever you are now it's your past experience may be negative or positive, now you have a choice how you can be, no need to regret it, that make you gloomy and pull you down and will not make you move forward .. all I can say forget about past and don't live with memories thinking about it to fix it which is gone long time ago.. now you have choice what you want to be