@elle2022 this is my advice, when you like someone / fall in love that person, just be straightforward and tell that person. You perhaps dealing with broken heart when you expect a good answer / yes button but the reality does not give you good answers. It is better to have that, rather than you pretend to be OK but your heart is not OK :)
I wish you have a good companion and a new person who can make you happy, in every situations you have.