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I've wanted to buy my own home since I was 10yrs old. Family laughed at me saving my pocket money for it. Now I'm in my early thirties, I've worked full time minimum wage for a decade and I know it will never be possible. I'm going to work my ass off until I'm too old and then I get to slowly lose my health and mind until life is finally over

To give you some more context. My partner and I are both very shy and socially awkward people. When we got together neither of us had been in a serious relationship before. I felt a kindred spirit and fell in love pretty quickly. He is my best friend.
He was a university student and we both were living with our parents.
We discussed the future. The plan was that once he has finished his degree we would look at the possibility of buying a house first and then getting married.
4 years ago we finally moved in together and 2 years ago he finished his degree and got a full time job.
7 years seems to be a long time for most couples I've seen online but it goes by so quickly. I dont think a year or 2 is enough time to fully know a person. The last 4 years have gone by in a blur.
A year ago we looked at houses and put in an offer but the sale fell through and that dream has gotten further and further out of reach.
I brought up the conversation of us getting engaged several months ago and he was on board. I sent pictures of rings I liked.
Communication is our biggest flaw. We struggle to talk openly when there is fear of upsetting the other person. I have considered that he doesn't want to get engaged and is worried about admitting that. The last time I tried bringing it up he said he wasnt sure how to be romantic and I was clear that I dont need anything special.
I worry I am just being selfish

I've decided I'm going to buy myself a ring and ask him if he want to be my fiance. I don't know how he is going to react but I dont want to wait around crying over it anymore