This might be one of the only times I felt such interest in a topic. I have read it all, word by word. I wish I could say that nothing happened or that it will surely turn alright, but we both know it is not the case. You’ve had your problems, and you dealt with them, but through improper ways, I’d say. You lacked attention, as dumb as it sounds, but it has a great impact - people, such as yourself, such as myself and everyone want to feel like they are on the right track. And you were, but your existence was in shadows due to your brother’s issue. Not the most ethical thing, but do not blame yourself too hard for it, you were a child. Look, this topic is so raw, it takes a lot of courage, hence you proved yourself being this way. You tried chasing people’s attention through your body image, but you see, people are evil, people are being led by their self interests, I know it has been a while, but I hope you have figured out that the people you have met were not trying to help you, but to help themselves. I do understand your seek for validation, even though you were searching in the wrong places. And I can see where your sentiment of being unworthy comes from, you have done things you know you’re not satisfied with at all. But this is the difference, the past. It doesn’t have to be the present or the future. I would normally say to take a step back and observe where you went wrong, but you already know, you’ve betrayed your own self. But you’re aware of that, so do take the chance of changing it. Learn to say no to things you do not enjoy. As Eleanor Roosevelt said, “No one can make you feel inferior without your own permission”. You can turn your sad existence (so far) into a life lecture, an inspiration to others. As for happiness, I personally found it only within myself - you have your own principles, your things that you believe in. Stick to your moral code, make progress, become better. Everything that had happened to you is just unfortunate, but it is not meant to be the only course you have to know. Stay safe, give yourself some rest and time for dealing with your thoughts, judge your life decisions and plan to change.
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