Oh shit those are all totally reasonably valid thoughts. Sometimes if I let myself think a little too hard on it I really go panicked over the thought of dying. Like, what if everyone's wrong about God? what if there is in fact no God? What if there is and he sucks? What if we get reincarnated and I remember, what if I don't, what if this is it, what if once we go, we are nothing. Would it be black? We wouldn't be sentient to know if it's just black which scares me because the furthest my brain can go is just the thought of black and silence but if I that that's not possible if we die it's just NOTHING