I'd like to tell anyone who is struggling to find a reason to carry on; Think of a memory. Think of a time in your life when you were truly happy, no matter how how big or small that moment was, dwell on it. Now think of a time in your life when things were worse than they are for you now, a time when you thought there was nary a chance to come through it in one piece. let it pass through your mind for a moment. Think back to people you have loved, who have loved you in return, regardless of where they are now, take a moment to analyze your triumphs and your failures. understand that no matter what happens in life, you have to keep the goodness from your past held strong in your heart, and carry that joy with you in the darkest of shadows, You need to look back on the events in your life that just about broke you in two, and draw strength from that. You are still here, You're still fighting, even if you don't want to, even if you feel like you cant. embrace that fighting spirit. and turn your pain into motivation, channel all that emotion into a fuel for your will. and keep in mind. there have been times in your life where you knew joy, and those days will return, especially if you FIGHT for them. life doesn't get easier. I wish I could say that it does, but that would be a lie. The difference lies with you. You get better at handling the hardship, and eventually, events that almost broke you will seem like no big deal, so long as you keep striving to do better. the last thing i'd like to say; You can only rely on yourself at the end of the day. Learn to love yourself, accept your flaws, and change the things that are in your power to change. You have to accept yourself for who you are, because you cant break up with, nor cut ties with yourself. you have to accept every mistake and shortcoming and love yourself unconditionally. on top of that, you most likely have people that love you, that need you in this world, and would never be the same without you. You can make it through this, even if you are at your lowest, for if that's the case, the only way to go is up.