I was at ur place last time. But my way might be slightly different than yours. An advice from me. If you think you had enough with the problem, just think, this's my last day. So i wanted to be the best throughout the day. And the episode come again on and off. Do the same thing. Which is the best reflection of yourself. It built ur confidence.. in advance, when u dealing with the same thing in the future, you already have zillion of way to cather and fix the situation later on. I knew it's hard. But believe this, we were brothers@sisters. U r not alone ok. My prayers will be with u