@gusion I was similar when I was a kid. I'd fell like it's not good enough.

@girltochat I'm sure you must have gone through quite a lot to think about this. I had some issues, financially and mentally, but nothing like this so I may not be able to give any relevant advice. So I'll go through some thought processes and scenarios If I was in your situation.

First I'm not willing to give up my freedom and life because of someone else. Even if they are parents, they only come on the list after me. To live and become free of this abuse I'd first search for the ways in which the abuse can be stopped/escaped. There are multiple ways, organizations, law, police etc. I'm not sure but I'd search for them on the internet. Let's say the parents are not as familiar with tech. This can help to research these things without them knowing. Depending on your age, the extent to which you rely on them changes, so I'd account for that. When you implement things with a plan, in the end they will respond somehow. And this response depends on their personality, education and financial situation. If you account for all this you might somehow escape them. See, you got past all this abuse for this long. If you can preserve in the same way and put that effort into facing this dilemma I'm sure even if its tough you will have a better life. Don't lose the only chance to experience this world. Even if no one loves you fight for yourself, surely in the future there will be people who will love you and care about you.