Look I too suffer from depression, and some days are harder than most but I decided to stop taking my meds because I didn't like becoming a zombie, devoid of all emotions. To share: I attempted suicide 7 times and on the 7th attempt I felt like a complete failure like I couldn't even get that right when I woke up in hospital. My best friend visited me and said "Not even god wants you" which at first made me more upset and depressed. But while laying in that bed struggling to sleep those word stuck in my head and I made a conscious decision that there was a plan for my life (I didn't believe in god, i didn't know if it was true but chose to believe in this plan) but I chosen to see this through and embrace the highs and lows. Right now as I share this I'm going through a low. But I will share and hope it will help someone find themselves.