I want to talk to others and be liked but my self esteem prevents me from being able to maintain that feeling the moment the time comes to conversate. Because of this I'm a terrible talker (irl only), and it only reinforces my mentality.
When the time comes, I immediately become insecure and overthink, then realize I won't be able to be interesting or maintain a conversation with another human and maintain eye contact. Suddenly, I don't want to talk anymore and decide to run away. I'm not worth their time.
How do I stop this? I just want to be like everybody else