so i'd call it my first adult/serious relationship and well she cheated on me 2 possibly more times (was a fool to take her back the first time) but i just found out that she's already in a new "public" relationship only a couple of months after we ended. i'm not angry or vengeful. i don't know, i just feel a little numb and hurt again even though i'm happy without her she was a gold digger and the relationship got so toxic she made me want to kill myself...
not sure what this feeling is. any help

so i realise this is the internet and all stupid comments will be ignored