I used to have a lot of friends with no deep connections but I was okay. At a point in my life, I decided I don't need most of them and then decided to isolate myself. Unfortunately/fortunately, I got used to enjoying my own space or just being on my own. I thought I needed no body. But now I feel so lonely and sad. I act so tough and make everyone believe I'm fine but I'm really not, and it hurts to know that everyone thinks I'm too strong to handle myself.