Best posts made by MarkV

I'm gay and in the LGBTQ community all everyone cares about is sex; I guess in general too. I love sex, don't get me wrong, but what ever happened to the days where you would take them on a car drive and talk, it's the small things that matter, not sex, because i would love to spend hours just loving someone without sex.

I think when were young we don't think about how other perceive us, but the older I got the more I saw how my body wasn't as fit as some guys, how I didn't have the social skills or confidence, and how I was so different. The older I got the more I realized that I was suffering from many mental illnesses, but having this realization didn't help, if anything it just made me aware that I was broken and lost. I started to ask for help and even started to see a therapist, but everyday I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper into my suicidal thoughts, but it scares me that it doesn't sound that bad anymore: time, place, and even how I do it doesn't matter. I want to feel happy again, like when I was young. I don't even think that when time passes it will get better, people don't love me and I don't love myself so i should end it now, but I still wanted a good life.

I am a gay male and I never understood why being gay was such a crime and sin to people. I can love a man the same way you can love a woman. I understand that you may find the idea of a man doing things with another man gross, but that's alright because I don't expect a straight man to think that way about another man, just like how I wouldn't think that way about another woman.