Posts made by johngds4

@ChainedRebel Thank you! So nicely put. I understand what you mean. When I was dating her, I was wondering: "Why am I doing this? It's meaningless. I'm gonna have to go home evetually. What's the point?", but as soon as I was sure, I lost her it became very clear. I met this wonderful human being and that doesn't happen every day. So a part of me was sad, but another part was just grateful. So I knew, it wasn't meaningless after all:)

@RandomCitizen123 I could reach her, but I would never do it. Not because I'm afraid, but it just wouldn't do any good, would only cause her inconvenience, which I don't want. It's how it has to be, but knowing that doesn't really help. I guess it just wasn't meant to be:(.

@Gretta Thanks, I have dated another one after her, but was just distraction. I'll try anyway though:)

@depressed-retard :DD

So I was at this exchange programme in Canada. where I met this girl. Gorgeous, kind and funny. We went out a couple times and I was falling for her and she said she likes me too. But then she kinda disapeared on me and then later told me she does like me, but dating isnt a priority in her life at the moment and we live far away anyway. Now I do get that this means, this whole thing just didnt mean as much to her and I accept it even though it hurts. Altough i'm positive she did like me, I do think, when she'll meet the real deal she will make dating a priority no matter what. Or at least I hope she will. It'd be still difficult to forget about her, but point is, the way it ended just felt so fake, wrong and so unfinished. I always had similar experiences back home, but it didnt stress me cause I thought: well she lives in the same town, same country even, I'll run into her and make it right. But in this case, we live so far away and I know I'll never talk to or see her again, and that knowledge feels overwhelming. Never is a long time. There are so many things left in me to say, but there's noone to say it to. When I saw on social media that she went back home, I felt demolished. It sounds stupid, but I just wanted our last ever interaction to be something true and genuine. I'll always regret this.