Posts made by james7th

@genesisiossss I fantasize about that all the time, but I think she would end up feeling bad for her sister and end things with me, even if they were good.

@sunwukong I don't think so. I wish. That would be easy to deal with. But there's some deep feelings there.

@Pepsigurl Believe me I try. And the thing is, I am still totally attracted to and in love with my wife (in a very different way). We still have sex pretty regularly (maybe TMI, but trying to give context), and it's good. But her sister is just something else entirely. Completely different energy. Thought it was lust but it's been 10 years and I just feel more into her, which is why I'm saying I'm in love.

Kendra Spade. She's so gorgeous.

@Pepsigurl I hear you. And I do try to do that. We just have a lot in common so we find ourselves just chatting about random shit like movies, food, whatever, and it's those little moments where that spark is super-charged. Luckily, she doesn't live within driving distance, so I don't have to deal with it that much. But when she visits, I see her in robe coming out of the shower, taking a nap on my couch, and I want nothing more than to just snuggle. It feels good to at least admit it, though. :)

i know, right? i'm so fucking mad at myself.

I don't know what to do. I chatted with her about 6 months ago on Skype, and told her I was having dreams about her. She then told my wife, and that was some drama for a couple of months. We saw each other last month, and mended fences, so to speak, but she thinks I said what I said becausue it was a slip up, or lust, or whatever. The truth is, I'm pretty completely in love with her, and I'd leave her sister to make it happen. It's freaking me the fuck out, because I still love my wife, but I can't deny that when I'm near her, talking to her, giving her a hug hello, I feel so much more heat and love. I can't keep pursuing this without risking a divorce, and I don't think my wife's sister will be with me even if I did.