Dude, you're a loser....
...just as long as you call yourself that.
Start writing targets you want to meet.
Start speaking positively about what you want to achieve in life
Start doing something with your hands that would be productive.
And whatever you do, stop calling yourself a loser
You're too young to be acting on these fantasies.
Lemme help you out.
Get some real friends
Play some outdoor sports
Listen to some good positive soul food music
And if possible, just possible, commit yourself and your desires to God.
Otherwise, I'm always available to talk
I really want to make out with my bf. But my Christian principles would advise me against it. 
Oh but it's already Monday here