I am 44 years old male that wants to be female. I am so scared of it. i have tried making female friends most willing help cant do too relatioships. i have ask family members and it caused drama. would be nice to chat and maybe hang out as friends. why is this so hard?

I am 44 years old male that wants to be female. I am so scared of it. i have tried making female friends most willing help cant do too relatioships. i have ask family members and it caused drama. would be nice to chat and maybe hang out as friends. why is this so hard?