Best posts made by EstheticAntler

Your lack of humanity is clearly evident, whether he is gay or not that really isn't our business, this seems very trivial and childish, there are other important matters suppressing the world. On another note, may I interests you in a roast consisting of you bare assed, cooking atop an open fire.

Honestly it really depends on what I am in the mood to play, though I've found that I really like all Elder Scrolls games, Skyrim, Days Gone, anything regarding Kingdom of Hearts, The Witcher Series, A few Call of Duty games, mostly WW2. Now if we are talking computer based and not console, LOA, Wartune, and WOW, but in general Ilike any games regarding roleplaying, simulation, and anything remotely war-worthy.

I appreciate your honesty and commend you for openly asking this question, although I find it a bit trivial, if you're young, forgive me. In short, yes girls also watch porn, I pound myself more times than I pound the keys on my computer keyboard. The only benefit really being, distraction from reality, existential need of destressing, and overwhelming desire to mostly "get there."

I am an odd person, with an odd music taste but I suggest that you listen to the following bands/artist in my playlist., Tender, SYML, Nothing But Thieves, The Neighbourhood, Arctic Monkeys, Chase Atlantic, Aquilo, The 1975, Mountains of The Moon, Jaymes Young, Lewis Blissett, Cigarettes After Sex, Black Atlas, Missio, Mansionair, Fleurie, Peter Manos, Jacob Lee, and Grandson.

You know you're getting wise, when the weight of the world no longer feels like a burden to you. You don't question the apparel of the world, nor the morality of the people, instead you come to accept that there is a given reason for everything. . . You know you're getting wise, when you're more aware of your surroundings and consciously understand that there are idiots and bad people in this world, with questionable morality and ethics. You know you're getting wise when you can accept that most of society as a whole and individually lack humanity and human decency. they know right from wrong but simply choose not to obey. Lastly, you know you're getting wise when you've concluded that there is absolute, existential meaning in anything and everything.

To answer your question, there is something that makes me feel very uneasy like a fish out of water, struggling to breathe in an environment that I am not quite adaptable in. It’s called anxiety and like many others who have fallen prey to her, I’ve began to question in the form of a parable whether I am my disorder or if my disorder is me, the real me. My characterized fear of people and crowed places, is it irrational, maybe, is the desensitized stares I get when I go places from those who desire me, maybe. Those that don't know me, and those who question the morality and motives of me, maybe. My desire to stab people in the neck when they breathe on me . . . now that may just in fact be the real me.
it is hard to depict what anxiety really does to me, so I've taken the moment to reflect on past and present and provide a description:

She came to me in the darkness, her hair a tangled mane, the color of midnight, flared out and cascading down her back. She was ghastly pale, her eyes black and voided of emotion. She stepped closer her body illuminated by the moonlight creeping in from my bedroom window. It was starting again. I should be use to this by now but I still panicked desperately trying to tear myself away from the sweat filled sheets. I couldn’t move. My body felt heavy almost as if water was filling my lungs. I struggled gasping for air my eyes stinging with tears as they darted back to the figure, her lips curled into a sinister smile. I could not escape her. She whispered her voice sweet yet so sinful,
"Je suis anxieux."
"I am anxiety."

@Eye I'm very honest.