I got pregnant with my 6 year boyfriend. My feeling are in shambles because we only got to where we are now because he is insisting himself onto me no matter how many times I broke up with him.
I kept saying yes because it's either he would threaten me or scare me that he would kill himself. I pity him and scared of him more than the feeling of love that's why I stayed in those times.
I'm keeping the baby but I'm not really sure about keeping him too. I shouldn't have told him that I am pregnant.

If I was in your position, I'd ask her if we can an have a cool off or break up because I need time to figure out my true feelings. What you feel for her is also possibly being used to her company or comfort.

Hi! We're all a little lost some times but you gotta be able to have some kind of release to feel how better. It may be a hobby, a person or work, etc.