Posts made by Daniel Shevlin

Mate,you need to channel your addiction,or addictive personality into summat that's an healthy addiction.Listen,your life sounds like it was a bit fucked up but tbh I spent my childhood with my Dad in prison,getting sexually abused,knocked about and bullied at school when I dared going.I followed a similar path to you but mine led me to smack and heroin addiction and quite a few prison sentences of my own.Now I'm far from perfect but when I reached your age summat clicked...in your 30's it can do that with addicts...I'm 47 now and I haven't been on the gear for years! I last went to jail in 2005,it's a slow process fixing up your entire existence,trying to be 'normal' when you probably never knew what that even was! I work out,I'm not confident enough it a gym so I have a home multi-gym set up etc... I get into that.I play guitar ALL the time.I teach it too,which earns me a few quid.FFS I never passed my driving test till I was 43/44 or summat,u think 21 is late lol But what I am tryna say is as bad as you think you had it,someone always gets it worse.But you can deal with it.primarily by getting deliberately obsessed with things you buzz off.I'm an obsessive anyhow.But bruv,you can get ur shit together...as they say you have to reach rock bottom before you can raise up again! There's deffo some truth in there.
Do u wanna fix all this up IN UR HEART? It sounds like it...you can't do it coz everyone wants you to.Trust,prison and the system dint help me too much.But once I was truly sick of it and started to change mentally...I think that's the thirties ting going on right there...you will crack it.Maybe with baby steps,one day at a time.Don't bite off more than you can chew.But know this.You can do this COZ I DID!!
I was THAT bad that even you at ur worst wouldn't wanna know me bruv.
Now people love me which in turn teaches me to love myself.
PEACE.And thanks for sharing x

@solmon Seriously...come on FFS

@Jeeeeeeedd She don't need sympathy,she needs help and you have proven you are FAR from it.FFS

@Ayanfe That really isn't going stop her getting abused,no offence.God and Jesus have yet to get involved...or did I miss something? Peace

@Kaneki-kun They don't need evil spirits to do shit like that,human beings are very capable of doing such despicable tings all by themselves.Believe me.I learnt that lesson VERY young.

@Jess Really?

@StigmatusMartyr I used to cover shadowplay and she's lost control with a band a couple years back...used to love playing them two.I used to play the bass on the latter...I so miss jamming with ppl right now...fucking lock down driving me nuts!

Been playing guitar years but just in local tings,not pro either.You a JD fan then? One of fave bands.

@StigmatusMartyr Do you play? Music?

@StigmatusMartyr Ian Curtis...what a miss..

Was it me? Does ur name start wiv an A

@Samir770 I just followed based on the compassion uve chosen to show.I hope u too r ok,it sounds as tho ur on the up.Good for u pal.

I have tried to kill myself 3 times.I haven't for a long time.It' took a long time not to want to take the quick and final option because I kept reacting the wrong way.I got addicted to hard drugs,spent a lot of time in prisons.It screwed me up when I was young and I was a child in the 80's,when this was happening,there wasn't even childline yet.It wasn't family direct that did this to me but it happened in my 'home' and like a snowball life went from bad to worse until I took control only ten years back.I do counselling,in fact I had it on day via Zoom,you see for boys there wasn't even a rape crisis service that existed,there is now and since the 90's.But I would SERIOUSLY love to see u out of that environment first.This will be a very difficult step but a brave and rewarding one nonetheless,one that I regretfully never had the inclination to take.I mean we didn't even have internet sites to chat on like this.My point is I want to try and help you,there is hop and there is help.But you need away from the danger as a first step.Talk about it first with ppl first,I'm not a pro but I care so much.Plz reply and let me know u are ok plz my dear Daniel . x

@Jess That's a pretty dumb response...plz dnt do THAT!

@ClaireSheppard Well said.

I grew up suffering physical and sexual abuse too my dear.I feel your pain I really do but I have to ask can you get out of this situation? Do you want help contacting someone who WILL make you feel safe?

Are you still feeling this way my love?