Hey @Bunnyrabbit

I think it is your fears that are holding you and your fiancé from talking about this. And some day or the other you will talk about it. So I think you should take some time off for yourself and think about it. Asking direct questions will be very uncomfortable to you but it pays off because you're not carrying this weight around with you but sharing it with your best friend. The love would always remain because you both are best friends. If there's one thing best friends can do, that is understanding each other and caring for each other and being truthful. Remember bunny, he is your best friend. That's all you need to remember. You don't have to deal with these things alone. You both can make it safely and well through this regardless. The fear of anticipation is sometimes worse than the event itself you know. So don't carry it around alone and share it your love. Good wishes to you Bunny. Love.