tbh I'm not even sure what I have. I've done my research on various mental disorders, that I suspect I might have, but obviously I can't decide for myself what fits and how I should treat it/ live with it. I'm planning on going to therapy soon, but it'd really comfort me to know what it is that I have. It's very frustrating to keep getting my hopes up, after relating to a disorder, but then it somehow not really fitting. I've been suspecting bpd, bipolar, anxiety (I'm pretty sure that I definitely have this) and just straight up my brain playing mind games with me. Like you know maybe I'm just imagining things, but that'd actually be messed up. Anyway that was my little rant for the night.. so I'm out :p