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RE: A Protest Letterposted in Discuss Anything
@g-a firstly, it is in my opinion your manner of thinking is too divergent or objective for this website. When I first came here, my goal was to be a troll with no strings attached. Unfortunately, I let my honest nature and compassion for people get in the way. I began to make friends and sought a more philosophical path. I told stories about my past and shared my nightmares and my hidden dreams; people supported and encouraged me to share more. For once, on the internet, I felt accepted and by complete strangers, no less. Things seemed good but that is only because what you see on the surface is always more beautiful than what lies beneath.
Good old @Lucifer did an excellent job remaining silent (at least with people who didn't know him personally). When he left it opened a door of deception I was beginning to uncover for myself anyways; things began to fall apart. A few trolls managed to unhinge this place and certain mods went dark for a spell. During the upheaval, a request was made from the founder to enlist new mods (mature ones as it was put). My name was mentioned and I reluctantly joined the ranks.
The first thing I did when I obtained mod status was to talk to users, old users. Not just certain ones but all of them. I wanted to know the untold stories, the lies, the dirty little secrets because I found myself slipping into the curious dischord of my younger years. And I was certain that knowing the whole story would allow me to moderate fairly. Like with all things, the truth has a way making one become jaded. With the exit of certain users and the back and forth of others, my attachments began to wear thin. What you see now is but a shadow of my former online persona.
For me, this place is an ever changing puzzle. I am not here so much for the interactions with others but more so the ability to learn how people operate within a social media environment. Things are easier to uncover on this platform, secrets are easier to crack, and lies are even more petty when the truth is hovering just overhead.
@stranger-danger was (is) my friend even if the feeling is not reciprocated. He asked me to ban him because the urge to return is too great when the option is still available. It was only brought to my attention recently that we mods should not ban individuals who request it. Had this been explained to me I would not have done it. Though I didn't want to do it, I respected his wishes. To me it was akin to a soldier who knew he was going to die painful death begging for a swift end. My ban was the bullet in stranger dangers head. I agree, he should left the same way Lucifer did but we all deal with our problems/vices in different ways. I didn't pry for answers just obeyed his wishes and accept full responsibility for the repercussions of my actions (as I do with everything in life).
One day, I too will probably join the ranks of the departed but my exit will be silent. I will not request a ban or write a long good-bye or thoughtful bio. I will simple fade away, so slowly no one will notice or care. People who know me outside TWS will know how to reach me and if they don't I will be fine with that because this just the internet after all.
I do not fret on such fleeting things.
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RE: I has lost my mental stability.posted in Discuss Anything
@willow holy shit... I go travelling for a few hours and miss some incredible dramatic shit. Anyways, I feel you handled yourself well in dealing with bucket. Dont let anyone else tell you otherwise. Take of yourself Willow, or I might have to come there and do it for you.
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RE: I has lost my mental stability.posted in Discuss Anything
The drama here is just incredible... I need to write a book about this place but I fear only TWS people would understand its depth.
I hope everyone is having a better day. It is my first day at my new job, wish me luck. 😀
