I have a rather unpleasant experience with addiction. I've inherited the addict gene from my father who has it from his father so i am a genuine full blown addict. That means that whatever addictive substance i contact in any way, i have much more chances to become addicted to it.

Like weed. I am addicted to weed currently, and i managed to keep my butt off MDMA and psilocybin after trying, i'm not into alcohol of any kind and i also smoke cigarettes, but in my condition i don't even count those.

I had a hard time with pharmaceutics, especially Alprazolam and those that end in -zepam.

I also developed some kind of sex addiction, as in if i don't get laid i get extreme mood swings. This works the same for the others too, but i can count more side effects of not using the formers, while lack of sex is just mood swings.

I see you guys don't quite know what addiction is to it's fullest extent, i'm not complaining about my life, neither am i criticizing you, i'm trying to raise awareness over this rather touchy subject.

All those websites with chatting and such are all BS. I'm trying to find an approachable chat mate who's smart and good looking because why the hell not.

I have a quite different approach when it comes to fear. Most of the fear i experience is rather inwards-reasoned. I don't really fear bugs, burglers, society, humans, god, devil, death and all. It's the cycle of life and i understood long ago that those things happen anyways, whether you fear them or not. So i adapt.

What i rather fear, comes from within. I fear failure, i fear rejection, i fear i'd lose my sanity or touch with reality one day, and helplessly live in some parallel, brain induced universe over which I consciously have no control.

Those things aren't in my power to control. I'll fear them to death, or until my fears become true. It's down to my core, to the way i was raised, to my brain wiring and chemical (im)balance. I can only control, up to certain levels of stress and mood, how much those fears affect me.

I want to have sex with my girlfriend.
I want to make friends, and i am used to being approached rather quickly.
I want to have sex only with my girlfriend.
Yet, i've been feeling like a spammer, fag and a loser, cause i'm a male.
Internet is overrated. You cannot see, hear, meet me, you don't know me and i don't know you.
Iiwouldjustbangmygirlfriend.
I'm not approached here and nowhere else because i am a male and yes, males tend to screw things (up).
But i have faith.
I will cross over stigma with the power of internet and all the boys who can relate to this post and will eventually like it because it suits them perfectly, does it not?
No. GTFO my post, this is my description, suitable for me. I am an individual. And i am angry so lay your hands down that upvote button.

I was looking for girls, yeah, why on earth would i want to chat with a boy? I'm boy enough myself. I don't get along with boys anymore, i have my fair share of dudes to chill with, i need no more.

I was looking for girls for chatting. And hell knows what. And i was looking for cool girls because i can. And for hot girls. Hot is somewhere near cool, and there are higher chances for a girl to be awesome if she knows she is and if she values that.

So, am I to blame? i don't really care, but needed to say those things.

It's all copyrighted. It's mine.

Hello everyone, i'm Steve. Hmu. I won't try to have intercourse with anyone.

As for whether it's good or not, i could happily live without it, but if i didn't have that i assume it would've compensate with something else. This is still manageable, i'm good with what i have.

I have a quite different approach when it comes to fear. Most of the fear i experience is rather inwards-reasoned. I don't really fear bugs, burglers, society, humans, god, devil, death and all. It's the cycle of life and i understood long ago that those things happen anyways, whether you fear them or not. So i adapt.

What i rather fear, comes from within. I fear failure, i fear rejection, i fear i'd lose my sanity or touch with reality one day, and helplessly live in some parallel, brain induced universe over which I consciously have no control.

Those things aren't in my power to control. I'll fear them to death, or until my fears become true. It's down to my core, to the way i was raised, to my brain wiring and chemical (im)balance. I can only control, up to certain levels of stress and mood, how much those fears affect me.

Ayyo listen up. Clean yo fucken brains off. Don't cling too much on this girl you're gonna get, it's gonna be a nice relationship that will hurt you as nothing else does. Stay the fuck off drugs, cause they'll suck you out, and stick to school. I know you're thinking what this bitch is talking about, but believe me when i tell you we don't want all that shit to happen again. And between you and me, psychology is the thing you shall do, you'll see why later on. AND EAT AT LEAST ONCE A DAY YOU MORON YOU GOT ME INTO HOSPITAL TWICE ARE YOU INSANE? Don't answer that.

Well i managed to get to those resolutions eventually, but a few years earlier would've done a whole lot of good to this human being.

I have a rather unpleasant experience with addiction. I've inherited the addict gene from my father who has it from his father so i am a genuine full blown addict. That means that whatever addictive substance i contact in any way, i have much more chances to become addicted to it.

Like weed. I am addicted to weed currently, and i managed to keep my butt off MDMA and psilocybin after trying, i'm not into alcohol of any kind and i also smoke cigarettes, but in my condition i don't even count those.

I had a hard time with pharmaceutics, especially Alprazolam and those that end in -zepam.

I also developed some kind of sex addiction, as in if i don't get laid i get extreme mood swings. This works the same for the others too, but i can count more side effects of not using the formers, while lack of sex is just mood swings.

I see you guys don't quite know what addiction is to it's fullest extent, i'm not complaining about my life, neither am i criticizing you, i'm trying to raise awareness over this rather touchy subject.

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I want to have sex with my girlfriend.
I want to make friends, and i am used to being approached rather quickly.
I want to have sex only with my girlfriend.
Yet, i've been feeling like a spammer, fag and a loser, cause i'm a male.
Internet is overrated. You cannot see, hear, meet me, you don't know me and i don't know you.
Iiwouldjustbangmygirlfriend.
I'm not approached here and nowhere else because i am a male and yes, males tend to screw things (up).
But i have faith.
I will cross over stigma with the power of internet and all the boys who can relate to this post and will eventually like it because it suits them perfectly, does it not?
No. GTFO my post, this is my description, suitable for me. I am an individual. And i am angry so lay your hands down that upvote button.

I was looking for girls, yeah, why on earth would i want to chat with a boy? I'm boy enough myself. I don't get along with boys anymore, i have my fair share of dudes to chill with, i need no more.

I was looking for girls for chatting. And hell knows what. And i was looking for cool girls because i can. And for hot girls. Hot is somewhere near cool, and there are higher chances for a girl to be awesome if she knows she is and if she values that.

So, am I to blame? i don't really care, but needed to say those things.

It's all copyrighted. It's mine.

Hello everyone, i'm Steve. Hmu. I won't try to have intercourse with anyone.

yes actually

All those websites with chatting and such are all BS. I'm trying to find an approachable chat mate who's smart and good looking because why the hell not.