Due to my twisted sense of pride
Having no one in which to confide
Taught to never show the tears I've cried
Many times wishing I had died
No one knows just how hard I've tried
To not show what's truly inside
So I hide
I hide behind a mask and a smile
Faking it all the while
Never showing the true trial
Constantly in a state of denial
Feelings of worthlessness, nothing worthwhile
When did things become so hostile
So I hide
I hide behind a guise and grin
Rarely acting on a whim
Afraid of what could've been
Letting too much get under my skin
Patience continuously worn thin
Keeping everything within
So I hide

@erikagautney u said nothing wrong its just me

@erikagautney. wow
That was deep .........👏👏👏

@erikagautney and i will rlly love to chatt with u if its ok with u 🤗

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness,
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under.
I yell for help, but no one is there to hear it.
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail,
fighting to stay above the darkness,
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me,
and I slowly begin to give in,
to the feeling that lies below the water line.
The waters starts to fill my lungs,
the lungs that once held so much life,
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that.
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness,
but why doesn't someone grab my hand,
pull me from darkness's grasp?
Because no one knows I stand at the boundary,
the boundary between light and dark,
so I give in to the thing that holds me.
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water,
so I slowly slip below the world of consciousness,
undetected by the occupants of that world.
I don't want to fight anymore.
I've given into darkness.

@erikagautney and i will rlly love to chatt with u if its ok with u 🤗

@erikagautney i rlly appreciate ur compliment and feel free to reply to my other content too😁😁

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness,
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under.
I yell for help, but no one is there to hear it.
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail,
fighting to stay above the darkness,
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me,
and I slowly begin to give in,
to the feeling that lies below the water line.
The waters starts to fill my lungs,
the lungs that once held so much life,
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that.
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness,
but why doesn't someone grab my hand,
pull me from darkness's grasp?
Because no one knows I stand at the boundary,
the boundary between light and dark,
so I give in to the thing that holds me.
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water,
so I slowly slip below the world of consciousness,
undetected by the occupants of that world.
I don't want to fight anymore.
I've given into darkness.

Enveloping the room,
Leaving everybody isolated.
Nothing to do, nothing to say,
Just silence.

Leaving an uncomfortable feeling,
With even those you are closest to.
So close to talking,
Yet so far.
Just silence.

Cold, dark, and alone,
Your feelings bottled up.
Your thoughts screaming to get out,
Wrapped up in your own world.
Inconsolable and suffering,
Just silence.

@erikagautney u said nothing wrong its just me

@erikagautney. wow
That was deep .........👏👏👏

Due to my twisted sense of pride
Having no one in which to confide
Taught to never show the tears I've cried
Many times wishing I had died
No one knows just how hard I've tried
To not show what's truly inside
So I hide
I hide behind a mask and a smile
Faking it all the while
Never showing the true trial
Constantly in a state of denial
Feelings of worthlessness, nothing worthwhile
When did things become so hostile
So I hide
I hide behind a guise and grin
Rarely acting on a whim
Afraid of what could've been
Letting too much get under my skin
Patience continuously worn thin
Keeping everything within
So I hide