@Yea33 I understand your intention, no worries. I am not offended, in fact, clearing doubts for others is a good thing.
Ghazwa-e-Hind I think you mean? It is like the huge battle which is going to happen in the Sub-Continent.
Well you must understand a few things:
Quran is the absolute word of God, so it cannot be wrong.
Hadeeth are the traditions or sayings of the Prophet, but they can be wrong, perhaps due to some people intentionally spreading corruption in it. Our Scholars of the past have done great work to weed out the false Hadeeth from the True ones.

Now that you understand this, this battle is not in the Quran. So now there is a chance that it can be wrong. It is from the Hadeeth, and the Hadeeth do not mention it clearly, they just say that a huge battle of Muslims and Non-Muslims would occur there, something like this. So perhaps maybe it has already occurred? The Hadeeth is too ambiguous that we take its pinpoint meaning of Ghazwa-e-Hind.
Since it is too ambiguous, we should just sit back and see what happens rather than making blind guesses.
I hope it clears some of your doubts.
Feel free to ask anything else!

@thinkerman I have been thinking for myself, that is the reason why I am still Muslim. My parents never forced me to pray regularly, never forced me to be pious.
I came to Islam and started following it properly eventually, my parents didn't push me, no one forced me. There were times I was going to leave, but every time I found an answer. I have spent so much time, and given in so much effort to get answer to everything, any doubts. I have been thinking, quite a lot.

@Eucalyptus You are twisting and over-simplifying what I am saying.
No. 1: I said they cherry pick verses, i.e they don't follow the whole Quran. For example the Quran in one verse says to kill non-believers, they only quote that verse only. However the context was that the Ayat (verse) was revealed during a war. Furthermore, the word non-believers was used to refer to their enemies, not all non-believers in the world. It is the same as if the Americans referred to their enemies in WWII as Japanese, like "Kill the Japs!" like this and not "Kill the Imperial Japanese Army!", I think you get what I mean.

No. 2: Following the Hadith, by that I meant they only follow the things they want, its like No. 1, you can see what I mean.

These Khawarij think that they are following Islam however they are clearly misguided.

You said heed "all the details", now I think you can see what I meant, I am saying they do not heed all the details, they do follow some, but partially, which causes problems.

@thinkerman I have been thinking for myself, that is the reason why I am still Muslim. My parents never forced me to pray regularly, never forced me to be pious.
I came to Islam and started following it properly eventually, my parents didn't push me, no one forced me. There were times I was going to leave, but every time I found an answer. I have spent so much time, and given in so much effort to get answer to everything, any doubts. I have been thinking, quite a lot.

@Eucalyptus You are twisting and over-simplifying what I am saying.
No. 1: I said they cherry pick verses, i.e they don't follow the whole Quran. For example the Quran in one verse says to kill non-believers, they only quote that verse only. However the context was that the Ayat (verse) was revealed during a war. Furthermore, the word non-believers was used to refer to their enemies, not all non-believers in the world. It is the same as if the Americans referred to their enemies in WWII as Japanese, like "Kill the Japs!" like this and not "Kill the Imperial Japanese Army!", I think you get what I mean.

No. 2: Following the Hadith, by that I meant they only follow the things they want, its like No. 1, you can see what I mean.

These Khawarij think that they are following Islam however they are clearly misguided.

You said heed "all the details", now I think you can see what I meant, I am saying they do not heed all the details, they do follow some, but partially, which causes problems.

@FluffyCookie They are not in the circle of Islam. They are a group of people called 'Khawarij'. These people have the following characteristics:

• These people do a lot of Takfir i.e they declare a lot of people (who call themselves Muslims) as non-Muslims without justification.

• These people think that main-stream Muslims have been corrupted so much that they all must be killed. They judge the hearts of people.

• They cherrypick Quran verses.

• They follow the traditions of the Prophet as long as it meets their desires.

• They rebel against Muslim leaders.

The Prophet PBUH warned us by telling us that their will be a group of young people, with the traits listed above; where ever you find them, kill them, because they are terrorists! Trouble-makers, these people kill innocents over doubts on intention!
Nowadays these people are ISIS, ISIL, IS, Al Qaeda, etcetera.

Also, only a government can order to kill someone who is a Khawarij, we can't just go around and kill someone who we suspect is a Khawarij, doing so will make us a Khawarij ourselves!

What are your hobbies/interests, what skills do you have?

@FluffyCookie No, killing people is never good unless it is necessary, like for crimes.

@Eucalyptus The innocent in the verse means non-combatants, unnecessarily killed people, like old men, women, children not participating in war.

@Yea33 I understand your intention, no worries. I am not offended, in fact, clearing doubts for others is a good thing.
Ghazwa-e-Hind I think you mean? It is like the huge battle which is going to happen in the Sub-Continent.
Well you must understand a few things:
Quran is the absolute word of God, so it cannot be wrong.
Hadeeth are the traditions or sayings of the Prophet, but they can be wrong, perhaps due to some people intentionally spreading corruption in it. Our Scholars of the past have done great work to weed out the false Hadeeth from the True ones.

Now that you understand this, this battle is not in the Quran. So now there is a chance that it can be wrong. It is from the Hadeeth, and the Hadeeth do not mention it clearly, they just say that a huge battle of Muslims and Non-Muslims would occur there, something like this. So perhaps maybe it has already occurred? The Hadeeth is too ambiguous that we take its pinpoint meaning of Ghazwa-e-Hind.
Since it is too ambiguous, we should just sit back and see what happens rather than making blind guesses.
I hope it clears some of your doubts.
Feel free to ask anything else!

I think I can understand.
Just tell yourself that you won't do it again, you are the one in control! You have said no and it means no!
You should also think that would it be worth it to go back to that old life?.
It's good that you are scared of it, you should be. This is a good sign that you are remorseful and that you will eventually break away from it.
Finally, keep doing something in life, be productive, keep learning, or working.

What are your interests/hobbies?

Well, this is the concept of God.
He was just there, this is the reason why He is God, no one has created Him, unlike every other being which has a creator. If He was created then He is not God anymore.